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eric watson
USA
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 Posted - 11/16/2012 : 17:49:43
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i remember waking up in the mornings and wondering when is this going to end lord.-i remmeber my rides to the dr as time and time again i had a pat on my shoulder telling me things arnt as bad as they could be its only spondylothesis,bulging disc,degenertive disc and probably ruptured disc, after all your not young anymore at 40 -youve lived your life now and the good ol days have caught up with you-gosh this was such music to my ears,
after all i could have swore just a yr earlier i was 39 and feeling better than when i was 29 and really a slight bend in the back yard had brought on all this?
i remember the long painful walk back to the car as i dreaded the ride back home hoping my wife wouldnt have to slam on the breaks or hit a pot hole,lord forbid if we had a car bump us from behind-
why was this happening again after being free for 10 yrs.The fear of a life that had no meaning ,the depression was overwheming after all i hadnt even saved enough to retire on,what was my kids going to do -what were my granchildren going to think,these thoughts were one after another as i had my daily pc sessions in which one cure was worse than the other/id tried them all/no results....
then as id be watching my wife tie my shoes jack lalanne would come to mind ,at 85 yrs he was still doing head stand pushups and doing full body workouts,and the many hundreds of people that i would notice that were decades older than me still running -living without lost hope and full of life.
werent they hurting?or had life just dealt them a better hand.i would watch folks in there 80s and beyond including my dad moving bending working out with weights,cutting the yard-was it something i had eaten-could they just have been working against the pain-
i know at 85 my dad wasnt-when hed have a sore day hed take a dones pill or something called salt peter and he would be fine as wine-hed also spray wd 40 on his head when his blood pressue would go up or if he had a headache and it worked-now i knew by common sense that dones pills were for the kidneys and salt peter was well salt-what was his secret?
Then out of the blue one day while searching the web,there was the answer staring back at me and i had no doubt this was it-over the couse of days i slowly began to get my hope back/
There was a lot of facets to learn about tms-but if id keep it as simple as possible from the beginning i know as sarno said it wouldnt be so bewildering-
i was looking into his first book (Mind over back pain) and it seemed to indicate that the knowledge of knowing that our problems are benign is enough to heal people that have had pain for a short time and the ones in which most of our lives have been consumed of the pain are to look more into our emotional pain-
his second book hits more so on the thinking psycological formula and is really the prime of his four books to me-thank you lord i was healing/i have read three so far,mind over back pain-healing back pain and the divided mind.i have learned a lot of great info into this miracle that sarno has stumbled upon and fine tuned for over 40 yrs-
by reading his books i can see he encourages others to expand upon his theory-thanks to others like steveos (great pain deception) which to me was a book full of understanding and wisdom, at the same time the way he compliments sarno is second to none,if im gonna study sarno i have to have steves book/i really enjoy all the wisdom i found on this forum....
and how if i had a question or didnt understand something within 24 hrs i usually would have enough info to drive me to the next chapter-theres tennis tom ,a man that should in my view write a book of his own from the wisdom he has obtained over the yrs- and so many more from drs to laymen and great women that have had that long rd of hurt come to an end by the vast amount of knowledge they have obtained from the east to the west-
affirmations,meditation,acceptance,awareness,mindfulness and this is just the beginning-the tip of the iceberg sorta say-visulizations etc...if you really want to get some deep knopwledge its here-if you want it just in steps ,its here....
If you really believe the diagnosis and really want the prognosis you will be healed-after reading the divided mind and the great pain deception i have come to the conclusion that just about anything can be healed by the mind-after all isnt the mind the source that were made of...
i know ive went into alot of descriptions here but the bottom line is a healing is just a belief away-it really is that simple and letting go of the fear that the masses has soaked us with since we were born-
i heard it put yrs ago that the dr dresses the wound and the body heals itself but if the body or brain thinks its doing you a favor then we need to learn how to reverse and recondition our perception to the old paradigms that we grew up to.we can heal our pains,hurts, and scars/
we at one time had our hope stripped by a dr that thought he was telling us the way our bodys were,but now we have a new hope that really works if we work it/its the new paradigm/as sarno said it almost makes no sense at all but it works.and this isnt my dads salt peter or wd 40 formula.
This is what we need,its the true way and its been talked about for ages-it took a man named sarno to put a finger on it and now the hope that was stripped,the victimized feeling,the depression is all but defeated to the person that accepts and walks out the journey laid out in front of them-i have a way out of the problem-i have my hope back-all we have to do is put in the hours of hope-belief-work and conquer the new frontier. |
Edited by - eric watson on 11/30/2012 05:37:49 |
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mala
Hong Kong
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Posted - 11/18/2012 : 06:31:39
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Great post Eric. Simply great. Thank you.
Mala
Mala Singh Barber. I'm on facebook. Look me up
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andy64tms
USA
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Posted - 11/18/2012 : 09:51:39
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Hi Eric,
Your post “how I got my hope back”, gives very a descriptive and vivid account of your recovery and you being physically worn out at 40. I realized I had forgotten most of the details prior to my recovery and how bad it was, as I did not keep any actual records.
How could this be? Even my wife doesn’t remember what happened to me before and during my back recovery in 2000, the actual pain events that I personally had been through for the past 20 years were they real, and did I repress them? As humans we tend to cover them up and repress, no one wants to hear them, family, friends and society doesn’t like wining, and we all know TMS represses bad emotions.
So I dug deep in my memory, and a terrible scene came to mind! In 1978 I had moved into a new house in California, and my personality dictated that I keep up with the Jones with a new dream house. One day I chose to single handedly trench my yard for lawn sprinklers, using one of those manly 200lb. power trenchers. It was awful sweaty work, in 90 degree heat I struggled like the mule head I was to get finished it time to return the trencher by 5.00P.M.
I remember collapsing and dragging my beleaguered body into the cool of the house where I passed out. I woke up alone, my heart thumping loudly, gasping for breath. I realized in my passion for getting the job done I had overlooked breakfast and drinking water; I had clearly run out of fuel.
I don’t know why, but this sort of self abuse continued for years, as our new house gradually gained lawns, trees and fences, and even a fancy spa surrounded with a redwood deck. I was excited to be in a new country, at last with a good income keeping up with those “Jones”.
Then one day my wife carted me off to the emergency room, I had collapsed again. I found out this running out of fuel was called “hitting the wall”. This time it was much worse, as my heart was pounding at an unusual rate unfamiliar to me, I didn’t know a heart could tick this fast, and I was really scared. When the emergency room doctor told me that I was having a “mere” panic attack I suddenly got better.
I have to admit Eric I laughed at some of what you wrote and all the things you had to go through, though my wife never had to actually tie my shoe laces. It’s good that we both can remember our pains, for in reflection we can give thanks for our recoveries.
Thanks Eric for reminding me of those troublesome years, some twenty years past.
Andy
Past TMS Experience in 2000, with success.
Back on Wiki Edu Program day 15
Charlie Horse on neck for 20 years. (to be evicted later.)
Books:
Healing Back Pain
Unlearn your Pain
The Great Pain Deception |
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eric watson
USA
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Posted - 11/18/2012 : 10:12:51
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| thank you mala-and thanks to you andy;hope the weekend brings you all blessings and comfort.... |
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woodyb
USA
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Posted - 11/29/2012 : 22:31:34
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You brought up how Jack Lalanne was 80 years old and doing hand stand pushups... I've often wondered about similiar things how I'm in so much pain but they're are 70 year olds running marathons or bending over and touching their toes... It doesn't make any sense to me.
I just had Doctor Schubiner review my MRI and all he saw were two mild to moderate disc bulges. He said they were normal for my age and it sounds like I have TMS but he can't say 100% certainly they aren't causing my pain. I really hope that my confidence builds on it being TMS and I can become pain free.
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eric watson
USA
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Posted - 11/30/2012 : 05:12:25
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Originally posted by woodyb
You brought up how Jack Lalanne was 80 years old and doing hand stand pushups... I've often wondered about similiar things how I'm in so much pain but they're are 70 year olds running marathons or bending over and touching their toes... It doesn't make any sense to me.
I just had Doctor Schubiner review my MRI and all he saw were two mild to moderate disc bulges. He said they were normal for my age and it sounds like I have TMS but he can't say 100% certainly they aren't causing my pain. I really hope that my confidence builds on it being TMS and I can become pain free.
Woodyb
you keep your hope and you will heal-you mentioned schubiner
ive heard of him often-can you tell me the name of his program |
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mchan
USA
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eric watson
USA
601 Posts |
Posted - 11/30/2012 : 08:59:24
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thanks mchan
and the best of wishs on all your endeavors...
god bless..
oh ok shubiner-hes how i learnt the way conflict is created
with the id and super ego,a great lesson
im going to buy and study his program too
when were on our path to healing we learn and apply
when we get healed we learn and apply-never stop learning
i heard webdan65 say how he had studied most all the books on tms and could recite them-im sure he put the lessons to work too as he has his own site now
but its about application
i know your applying -its really pretty easy once you can get your mind to believe that this really does work |
Edited by - eric watson on 11/30/2012 09:08:22 |
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