Yesterday during the day I walked around the mall shopping. I could feel my toes inside my sneakers still screaming. I just kept shopping anyway. I am also always on the lookout for possible compatable shoes that might work on my feet I tried one or two pairs on which usually makes matters worse. Later that same afternoon I had resolved two issues. One minor, that had to do with a surprisingly good outcome regarding my car and the dealer. Another was a successful meeting with my soon to be ex business partner. I had what I call a feeling of satisfaction and happiness that two things just happen to have worked out favorabally in one afternoon (how simple and yet how rare). I went to bed last night and woke up noticing that I slept well and that my pinky toes did'nt hurt when they touched the mattress . (that was where I was at about two weeks ago for 3 nights before I took the plunge into trying some shoes etc. which set me back real bad).This to me plus hearing from Dr.Fatteh that I probably do have TMS is helping convience my brain more and more that I am on the right track with this whole thing. I am also trying to wean myself (very slowly) off my asthma medication and "black thermal scarf" that I have to cover my nose & mouth with in temperatures below aprox. 62 degrees. I have a feeling once this "business issue" of mine gets favorably resolved my symptoms will hopefully dissapate for good. I have one other issue which I can't change regarding my dear mothers death 2 years ago.All I can say is that somehow I didn't have that pop into my mind yesterday either. I have a Bat Mitzvah on Saturday and will be wearing a pair of pretty high shoes I just bought.I will let you know how I make out. Hope you all have a great day.
Good girl!! Sometimes I think that experiencing happiness and joy is just as important as dealing with the subconscious pain. You need healthy doses of good feelings and an awareness of the bad ones. That is the path to getting rid of the pain.
Hey guys wanted to report back to you regarding the shoe/Bar mitzvah thing that I went to last night. There are two parts to the shoe problem thing. The first part is regarding my initial 2 year old injury to the middle right toe. This affected the shoe "height" that I could wear (meaning heels not over 1 3/4 inches aprox.) I am thrilled to say that I wore about a 2 1/2" high heeled sandal in which I danced with no problem and with no residual pain in the morning. This was a major conquest for me! I bought these shoes recently because they were cut in a way that they didn't really touch my inflammed pinky toes (the main TMS issue at hand). The left side still ended up touching alittle unexpectingly on that pinky toe which I only felt alittle but with very slight morning after side effect. I still need to conquer the closed shoe issue and I will give that another try when I feel ready. In the mean time the "high heel" thing is a done deal. One down and one to go! And to Tennis Tom... I can look sexy again comfortably, (if not yet in a closed shoe) in an open toe "high heal"
Finally a good night again..maybe there IS hope!
Posted - 12/15/2004 : 06:31:37
I tried one or two pairs on which usually makes matters worse.
