| 2scoops wrote and asked if I am a perfectionist. I guess it's something I never gave much thought. UNTIL THIS HAPPENED and I can't move or take care of anything, or prepare a meal or do my own shopping or clean my house or work or spend time walking or playing. Hmmm, rage? It seems whatever I had to be angry about was intensified by this pain. I have had to watch while others have done my stuff that I can't do and have had to learn to smile and say thank you while really all I'm thinking is "OMG! Why aren't you doing it right?" So. Evidently yes, I am. And I feel like I have "swallowed" even more in the 3 yrs since this all started. It feeds itself, doesn't it? I read HBP 2 weeks ago. Borrowed it. Tonight I dragged myself through the book store and bought my own copy and also Mind Over Back Pain. I am committed to this. Or I am going to be committed. Barely made it through the store and was in such pain by the time I got out. All the while chanting silently, this is not physical pain, it is made up by your brain to distract you. 2 weeks now. I am like a woman possessed. This is my last hope. |
Am I a Perfectionist?
Posted - 05/25/2007 : 22:25:07
