TMS symptoms are like weeds in a garden. To keep them at bay you must do plenty of weeding in order to let the flowers prosper. If however you water the weeds and allow them to grow, they will begin to take over the garden, to the point where they will strangle the flowers and unless dealt with, will destroy them.
I like the analogy. I wonder whether your therapy will over time be like a deposit of bark chips that starts to prevent the weeds from starting in the first place. The key to underscore is time. I liked the analogy that the facilitator in my group mentioned wrt feeling the feelings. Its like exercising a muscle. The more you exercise it the stronger it gets. The more you work on accessing your emotions the easier it gets to feel them.
Your last post wrt your mom felt to me like it was so full of feeling that I was wondering when I read it whether the stoic in you was letting down his guard and letting you have a really good hard cry.
Seems like you are on the right track to purging TMS from your body totally. It probably just takes time.
I feel like i've turned a corner as my symptoms have lessened over the last few weeks. Just have to keep charging ahead and doing the tough work I know I have to do.
Glad to hear your symptoms have diminshed. I agree that the work must be put in.
I have actually stopped having therapy for the time being. I was getting a bit confused by what it was bringing up and was a bit overwhelmed by it all and how best to deal with it. I'm sure I'll be going back at some point in the near future though.
Remembering to 'feel' is what is keeping me on track. If I do that I seem to be able to connect appropriately with things rather than the previous general numbness.
TMS the parasite
Posted - 04/22/2005 : 09:59:06
