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lobstershack
Australia
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 Posted - 02/22/2005 : 17:41:49
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Hi,
So I still have yet to call Gwozdz and Angelov to see whether or not they accept my insurance even though many people--including my therapist--on this board have told me that it's not necessary. Heck, I don't even think it's that necessary. But I'd just like to know anyway; and if they do maybe I will go just for a one time visit, not to the lectures or anything since I have all the materials at my disposal. The more I think about it, the more I think I'm being rediculous!
Otherwise, while I haven't been doing as super as I was, say, last week; I am not doing terribly. My "dipping down" tends to correlate with a decrease in my adhering to, or believing the fundamental tennets. Reading what I just wrote, how could it not! Jeeze, what I just said didn't really even register before--well it did, but only on an intellectual level. That's part of the reason why I love posting on this board; sometimes just reading my own script is enough to make me realize an important point.
For the past few months I've been getting back to running (I've mentioned this before). In the beginning, I did feel pain in my ankles/shins, but nothing quite that bad; in fact, it started to ease up a bit at one point. Note: these pains, which started after my main TMS symptom (headache) made itself manifest, only bothered me when I would try and run (conditioning I guess).
A few days ago I went for a run in the park, and I had the same pains, but it felt good nonetheless. Now, I find my ankles and shins hurting ALL THE TIME! To the point where, when I go on the treadmill at the gym, I have trouble running for however long I'd like to (usually 20 min). I know this can't have anything to do with that one time in the park; and even though I never stretched in the past, I just started a few days ago--stretching after my run that is. I figured, TMS or no TMS, stretching after running is a good idea, even though I sort of make them up as I go along : ]
So, what is the point of this rambling. These now constant pains--shin, ankle, knee--have to be TMS! I think. And if they were exercise related, they would have gone away. And I doubt I "sprained" anything. Maybe this is a good thing, considering I never had this before--well constant that is. In fact, I rarely find myself thinking about my headache anymore, mainly this. Perhaps TMS feeling majorly threatened?
One last point: Every time I find myself concentrating on the pains--which I'd honestly say is most of the day--I tell myself "think psychological" and then try and think of some unpleasant incident or emotion. But even when I do this, I still feel the pain. Does this mean I'm not doing things "correctly?" So instead of the progression going: feel pain---->think psychologically, should I be jumping straight to the psychological portion. I hope you can marshall through this mudddled email. Sorry if it's confusing. I'm also, not using the spell-check (I'm trying to curb my perfectionist tendencies). Thanks a bunch!
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deer
USA
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Posted - 02/22/2005 : 20:51:29
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| Seth I really don't know you so well .However, I think that for some people it is very helpful to speak with a TMS doctor face to face.It leaves more of an impression on the person even if they already know the material.I think that this applies to experiencing the lecture as well. P. S.I am just speaking from my personal experience. |
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Hestia
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Posted - 02/22/2005 : 22:31:14
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Seth, I have been meaning to post to you about my experiences going back to running. I have felt similar physical symptoms as you and they have all been TMS. After having bad TMS foot pain for almost 18 months I started walking then running again in September. First I had shin splints. Then I had knee pain bad enough to go to the doctor and one visit with physical therapist. I took about 3 days off running then went back to it on the hurt knee. Knee was better within about 2 weeks. After that I had shin splints up the inside of my calves. This has continued for several months with varying intensity. Now that pain has finally seemed to subside to be replaced by hip and a little quad pain.
So far I have not let anything stop me from running. The knee pain did set me back a little but I kept trying. What happens often with me is that the pain will be there when I first start to run and then subside after the first couple of minutes running. I refuse to let it stop me because I know that it is TMS. It is a fight that I intend to win!
As for stretching, you are suppose to before and after. I forget sometimes and I find it makes no difference in whatever my TMS symptoms du jour are.
The TMS monster knows how to pick our weaknesses. For me I know that my dad had hip replacement surgery 9 years ago in his mid 50's. It gives me that slight doubt that my hip pain might be arthritis as his was. I know that it is not rational.
I also do leg weights to strengthen my legs and reinforce in my mind that my legs are strong and healthy.
I will be on that treadmill again tomorrow morning, running, as I do 5 days a week! Good luck to you!  |
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