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forkstale
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 Posted - 03/24/2012 : 15:29:57
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Hi, a newbie here.
I've been struggling with pelvic tension / pain for almost a year now. I've read quite a few things about this on this board. Some stories almost literally describe my situation.
A year ago I woke up with a terrible pain in my bottom and I was diagnosed with a hemorrhoid. I never had one THAT bad. The excruciating pain went away, but since then the pain in my buttocks / rectum / pelvis has never been away.
From the start of this I have been pretty obsessed by this pain.
Spent my days googling and looking for cures, buying tons of OTC stuff, saw a lot of doctors.
First I was worried; but when I had a colonoscopy and everything looked fine, that went away. Then I got angry at the pain. It's just constantly on my mind, although it's not often very severe (from reading a lot on this board I learned about people probably having it worse than I do). By identifying with the pain so much I suspect I might trigger the pain myself, somehow. The odd thing is that the pain is almost completely gone when I wake up in the morning. Whenever I get up, after 1 hour, the pain is back and decides to stick around for the rest of the day.
Recently I finally saw another proctologist and to my surprise he only discovered some very minor hemorrhoids, but said my pelvic muscles are VERY tense.
I still have pain sitting and lying down in my left buttocks. I just don't know anymore what it's like to drive a car or watch tv without that dull ache. I've gone through pretty depressed episodes, thinking "what if this never went away", "the quality of my life is gone with this pain always there".
I've read "Healing Back Pain" and I'm really starting to think I might have TMS. The only weeks the pain lessened or even went completely away, it was replaced by something else! The flue, a tooth-ache, even adult-acne. Every physical pain, or condition, that I find myself in, consumes me fully. I kept a journal about the pain, trying to find links and relationships. It's obsessive, really.
The pain being a distraction for mental issues, I can see how it would apply to me. (I do have a tendency to substance abuse, which kind of points in the direction of "emotional repression" anyway.) On the other hand I can be honest to myself and I'm able to address and describe mental issues that I might have. I mean: I don't really FEEL like I'm repressing anything.
Is there anything else I can do to work on this, besides reading Sarno's books? I want to work on a more positive attitude towards this. Since a few days I've been telling my mind "just give it up, i'm not afraid of that pain" and it seems to make me cope a little better. I wish I could just erase the memory of the pain out of my brain so I'm not reminded of it. I'm pretty sure that would cure me.
Well, this post just being part of actively trying to work on the TMS.. good luck to everyone in the same boat!
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forkstale
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Posted - 03/24/2012 : 15:38:41
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| Interestingly, while writing this post and right after, my pain went down by 80% definitely. Realizing this, though, brought it back instantly. Could that mean something? |
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lynnl
USA
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Posted - 03/24/2012 : 21:42:50
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There's no doubt in my mind that you have TMS. Brief remission of one symptom, only to be replaced by another, is one of the classic characteristics of TMS.
Dull pain in the buttock sounds exactly like what I experienced for 3 years or so, as part of my sciatica.
Ref your comment: "...could this mean something?"
Yeah, I'd say it means your problems respond directly to your mental activity. Another sure sign they're psychogenic in nature, i.e. TMS.
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Edited by - lynnl on 03/24/2012 21:46:26 |
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lara
USA
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Posted - 03/25/2012 : 11:14:46
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Originally posted by forkstale
Hi, a newbie here.
I've been struggling with pelvic tension / pain for almost a year now. I've read quite a few things about this on this board. Some stories almost literally describe my situation.
A year ago I woke up with a terrible pain in my bottom and I was diagnosed with a hemorrhoid. I never had one THAT bad. The excruciating pain went away, but since then the pain in my buttocks / rectum / pelvis has never been away.
From the start of this I have been pretty obsessed by this pain.
Spent my days googling and looking for cures, buying tons of OTC stuff, saw a lot of doctors.
First I was worried; but when I had a colonoscopy and everything looked fine, that went away. Then I got angry at the pain. It's just constantly on my mind, although it's not often very severe (from reading a lot on this board I learned about people probably having it worse than I do). By identifying with the pain so much I suspect I might trigger the pain myself, somehow. The odd thing is that the pain is almost completely gone when I wake up in the morning. Whenever I get up, after 1 hour, the pain is back and decides to stick around for the rest of the day.
Recently I finally saw another proctologist and to my surprise he only discovered some very minor hemorrhoids, but said my pelvic muscles are VERY tense.
I still have pain sitting and lying down in my left buttocks. I just don't know anymore what it's like to drive a car or watch tv without that dull ache. I've gone through pretty depressed episodes, thinking "what if this never went away", "the quality of my life is gone with this pain always there".
I've read "Healing Back Pain" and I'm really starting to think I might have TMS. The only weeks the pain lessened or even went completely away, it was replaced by something else! The flue, a tooth-ache, even adult-acne. Every physical pain, or condition, that I find myself in, consumes me fully. I kept a journal about the pain, trying to find links and relationships. It's obsessive, really.
The pain being a distraction for mental issues, I can see how it would apply to me. (I do have a tendency to substance abuse, which kind of points in the direction of "emotional repression" anyway.) On the other hand I can be honest to myself and I'm able to address and describe mental issues that I might have. I mean: I don't really FEEL like I'm repressing anything.
Is there anything else I can do to work on this, besides reading Sarno's books? I want to work on a more positive attitude towards this. Since a few days I've been telling my mind "just give it up, i'm not afraid of that pain" and it seems to make me cope a little better. I wish I could just erase the memory of the pain out of my brain so I'm not reminded of it. I'm pretty sure that would cure me.
Well, this post just being part of actively trying to work on the TMS.. good luck to everyone in the same boat!
Hi,
I am in the same boat as you are,my pelvic pain started 8 months ago,just stick to this forum,keep on reading about TMS ,don't dispair,never give up,since i started the TMS approach there has beeen better days than bad ones,so it is possible to get cured".
I know i have a lot to do yet,but i won't give up until this pain goes away forever and finally post my succes story here 
I am amazed that today i walked mny dogs for one hour and 30 minutes,i am doing shopping,going out more often,having a better life now,than before joining this forum and reading Dr Sarnos book.Wikipedia program didn't work for me,but reading Abigail Steidley is helping in an extraordinary way.
Good luck to you too!
Lara |
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SteveO
USA
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Posted - 04/19/2012 : 22:47:17
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Forkstale, do you know who Abigail Steidley is? Read her story and heal.
Also, when you write something out you begin to heal. It's a large part of the healing process, and indicative that it is probably tms. Dr. Sarno stated 3 years ago that they were astounded at how powerful "writing the problem out" could be. When you realize that confiding began healing you, the symptom returns, this is what CS Lewis called the "watchful dragons of self conscioussness." Raalizing healing can inhibit healing.
You hold your tension in your pelvic floor, some in their hands and feet, many others in their backs. It is an unconscious choice. |
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shawnsmith
Czech Republic
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Posted - 12/01/2012 : 09:52:49
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Originally posted by lynnl
There's no doubt in my mind that you have TMS. Brief remission of one symptom, only to be replaced by another, is one of the classic characteristics of TMS.
Lynn
This is a common problem for those who have TMS. One symptom disappears and one thinks they are out of the water, then bam! another symptom pops up.
I got this rather distressing flare up right now, which has been taking place for about the last 7 to 10 days, in which I have severe and sharp pain in my left buttock which makes it difficult for me to walk with ease. I say this not to complain, but only to note how the symptoms move around. The thing is, while I am in bed or sitting the pain reduces signifigantly, but when I get up and move around I honestly feel I am being zapped. When I walk around for awhile (the time varies) the sharpness at least goes away and I can function normally. I know that, currently, I am a victim (is that the right word) of conditioning which is not always a straight forward thing to alleviate. I keep telling myself it is just TMS -- which, of course I believe from all I have read -- but it is rather stubborn.
The usual stressors, mostly self-imposed, are playing a part in all of this. More later, but just want to share, as stated above, that this is not as an occasion on my part to complain, but to highlight how pain moves around the body in many cases of TMS and this should not be a cause of over alarm.
Here is a good post on buttock pain: http://www.tmswiki.org/ppd/Buttock_Pain |
Edited by - shawnsmith on 12/01/2012 14:04:13 |
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andy64tms
USA
589 Posts |
Posted - 12/02/2012 : 15:58:13
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SteveO,
I couldn’t possible go and see Abigail Steidley as a mind body coach! Her charm and attractiveness would distract me from my real TMS issues.
Andy
Past TMS Experience in 2000, with success.
Back on Wiki Edu Program day 15
Charlie Horse on neck for 20 years. (to be evicted later.)
Books:
Healing Back Pain
Unlearn your Pain
The Great Pain Deception |
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Racer
USA
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Posted - 12/06/2012 : 22:15:37
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Originally posted by forkstale
Interestingly, while writing this post and right after, my pain went down by 80% definitely. Realizing this, though, brought it back instantly. Could that mean something?
This seem to be a mind game. During the past, whenever I enter a doctor's office, all my pain will vanish, had the difficulties in pointing the exact places of the pain in-front of the doctors. As soon as I get out of the doctors' room, those pains will come back once again.
You are bit lucky to have the pelvic pain only in the back. I had the pelvic tension causing pain not only in the back side, I get pain on my left psoas deep in side my left hip, groin as well as behind the genitals.
After coming to this support forum, and practice to handle the TMS, I feel lot better. I'm also letting the emotions go. I still have more to do.
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LuvtoSew
USA
327 Posts |
Posted - 12/10/2012 : 09:51:19
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| I'm in the same boat. Got coccyx pain a few years ago, tailbone, and after muscles messages and that I have what feels like a tennis ball down there, like a huge spasm. Going to have a colonscopy soon, due for one anyway. And hopefully it will rule anthing out, leaving me with just muscular problems. |
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