All, I've been saying for about 3 months now that I've received 80% or so of the pain relief I sought. I think that's because I stopped fearing what was happening to me. The fear was like fuel on a fire. Without it, the pain died down to some embers. It is also because I learned what my nocebos were and I've been banishing them. There were also the conditioned responses that I had to break the cycle of. But, this still left me with a little residual pain most days. It was moving around now and just further proving to me that it was only TMS and not something truly physically wrong with me. Also, I still once in a while had a bad day.
What I learned in this post was right there in the literature all along but somehow it finally just clicked for me. I do think a lot about myself but I see this as a terrible thing and do everything possible to project exactly the opposite to other people. For the last few days, I've readily admitted to myself and even a few others that I care about that I am self-centered. I've been saying more of what I really feel instead of the answer I thought I was supposed to give. The last few days have been amazing for me physically. Not only was the pain gone from where it started, but it was gone from everywhere! I know it is because I finally found that last piece of the puzzle - the thing that was causing rage in my unconscious - and now there's no reason for the pain distraction to continue anymore.
I fully expect to write my success story on this site soon. I would like to thank each of you that commented on this thread for sharing with me. This forum is truly a great place.
Disregard that last post about having figured it out. Grrrr. Started off this morning great but then it went bad. Don't know what triggered the repressed rage but I definitely was paying for it. I will just keep searching to figure it out.
Haven't contributed to this site in almost three months. I've been doing well. Went from 80% to 98% and I'm happy with that. After all, I am human! I will write my success story now. Good luck to all of you.
I always thought I was the 'good guy' but recently I've realised I am extremely selfish, it is a bitter pill to swallow and it took hitting rock bottom.
I have been completely self obsessed. I'm working on it everyday now yet my ego will fight it still. I have been doing things for others not just showing sympathy like I used to.
My version of people pleasing and goodist
Posted - 04/05/2012 : 23:34:46
