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la_kevin
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 Posted - 01/05/2008 : 15:47:46
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So I have been busy with "stuff". I still have the "going on with life" mantra in my head, but I have to admit I still suffer pain. It's not as bad as it was. It's more focused now, but when I get it, it is easier to talk down or ignore.
THe thing that drives me nuts is that it is always in the back of my mind if I'm not busy doing something. Like today, I was playing a computer game, and the whole time I had absolutely no pain. Once I turned the computer off to go start laundry, the pain comes on.
(Total TMS M.O.)
I have been lazy on journaling. I try to "journal" in my head. Like going through the thoughts and being aware of whats bothering me. I don't think that is as effective though. THeres something about writing or speaking into a recorder that works better.
I notice that I am more free of fear to do physical things though. Like lifting, I've lifted things this week I would have never attempted a few months ago. Sometimes I get a twinge or sensation after it, but I just ignore and tell myself that I didn't hurt anything. Usually the twinge or feeling goes away then.
I also have more friends, speak to people better, attract more positive things, am aware of my thoughts more, not so harsh on myself, and more focused. Those are the pros of it all.
But I still am stuck with pain. Like I said before, I am still going on with life, but I really would like the pain gone. I would like to say "I've tried everything". But I haven't. There is always another approach. And I have hardly even begun to journal like I should again.
I'ts one of those things I know that is needed, but am avoiding it and trying to "keep busy" instead.
SO I guess I need to get back to it. I'll let you know if doing that PLUS the "resume normal activity" part does the trick.I'm trying to remain positive and not flip out. TMS doesn't devastate me like it did, but it still gets me depressed and enraged.
I guess I need to dig in again or maybe return back to therapy for this. Does anyone have any suggestions? Does it look like I will be one of those people that fails "TMS TRaining". AM I maybe too far gone or a lost cause? I dunno sometimes.
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DrGUID
United Kingdom
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Posted - 01/08/2008 : 08:08:04
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You're probably a lot like me. I got so totally focussed on pain, I didn't really bother about anything else other than living from day to day and trying to hold down a job. Now the pain's pretty much gone and I can resume my career there is a *huge* void in my life, sort of like "oh, now that I am no longer in constant pain, now what can I do?".
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MAbbott
USA
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Posted - 01/13/2008 : 02:58:12
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Having just finished The MindBody Prescription by Sarno, I would say that you need to acknowledge the irrational, sometimes unlimited source of deep rage that must be sitting in your unconscious. You cant feel it and you don't have to feel it - but try recognizing that you may not be able to realize the depth of what is going on in the places in you that you can't access.
Also, Sarno recommends visualizing a flow of oxygen to the area that is being deprived of oxygen.
These are things that work for me and today I successfully warded off a migraine using these tactics.
Also, if you are becoming obsessive about TMS and the pain, thinking about it constantly, you may be trading one problem for another and not really getting out of that darned loop. Take a break and simply quit thinking about it all for a few days or take a pain killer for some temporary relief in order to get perspective.
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