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res
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 Posted - 12/05/2007 : 11:05:08
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Kevin-
I was just wondering if you were still have the same positive results from coming to terms with the pain. Your post was very inspirational. I still have too much fear of the what if it gets worse type. How long did you work on the TMS approach prior to this epiphany?
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la_kevin
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Posted - 12/05/2007 : 17:04:22
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Yes, the pain is pretty much "gone". If it's there I just don't pay it any attention. I find that it is less and less every day, much more than it was when I was actively doing the TMS work. It's like background noise now. I also find that my mind doesn't see it as a factor more now. Hard to explain unless you were in my body feeling the difference.
I'm waking up and the pain doesn't creep in now like it did before. I would wake up and think " Oh no here comes the pain" and it would right on cue. I'm not getting that now. And if I do get pain, I pretty much ignore it and it leaves after about 5 minutes.
As a weird side effect I'm tossing and turning in my sleep and having strange nightmares. Some weird symptom imparitive. But if I keep focussed that the pain won't stop me, it seems to lose it's effect more each week.
As far as how long I worked with TMS. I knew about TMS about a year ago and hand a big effect after listening to Sarno's audio book(HBP).What I had left was the 15 or so percent that stuck around so about 3 months ago I started really doing the deeper TMS work. About 1 1/2 months of therapy(which is not a measuring stick at all) Then about a week ago I "gave up", which isn't really giving up at all. I call it the "final TMS sollution". Facing all fears about pain and "what if" thinking and just simply living like you did when you were "normal". I have a theory that for some people the whole TMS way of life is a distraction at the same time, a double edged sword. It gives you insight, but if you immerse yourself too much in it, it can become your new drug. Some people don't like to hear that part, and Sarno or others don't really account for it as a negative effect. But any critical thinker should know there are always cons to any scenario, the Universe sucks that way.
TMS is a very personal thing. What works for one may not work for others. People have to find their own personal key to the puzzle. This may be mine. It's still a work in progress.I'm not going to claim that the pain is done or gone. I can say it's not registering like it did and doesn't have the effect on my daily decisions. If that is the best I can hope to attain, so be it. I have also changed my mind that I won't hope for an outcome or "personal best" with pain, before I decide to move forward.
Im a fighter by nature. Control is a big thing with TMS. I know now that it wants to use a persons fighting instinct against them. If you fight it, it has you. The bigger the frustration and anger the more it wins. Sometimes there are fights you can't win by fighting back, it was hard for me to realize that. Sometimes you win by not fighting at all. Which is hard for a person like me who believes in being the superman to save the planet and all that jazz.
Also, I haven't abandoned TMS principles if that's what someone got. I will still use them. You can't really walk away from the brain. I still need to be conscious of my emotions, self talk, stimulus,etc. That part of the equation is actually easier for me since I've changed my outlook on life many times and am very adaptive philosophically. The hardest part is the physical. Trying to get over the feeling like my muscles are fragile like paper for some reason, when I have no reason to think so. Or that I won't do something and end up in crippling pain again. That's freakin tricky stuff.
I'm glad my words inspire somebody. Makes me feel like it's not a total loss. ****, I wish I could heal everyone. I guess ask yourself the big questions. Likie, what has TMS done to keep you from going forward? If you had six months to live, would pain stop you from visiting all the places you never saw? Would it stop you from going to see that Salvador Dali painting in person? Would it stop you from skydiving once? Why are you afraid to go forward? Is it the fear of more pain, because if it is, TMS won already. Not all of the "unacceptable thoughts" that Dr Sarno talks about are based in the past, but about what lies ahead. LIFE can be the unacceptable thought. |
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res
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Posted - 12/05/2007 : 17:41:24
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Kevin-
Thanks for answering, I needed to hear the boost. I had a nine day stretch over Thanksgiving that ended on the Monday I had to return to work and take my mom back to the airport. The past two weeks have been rough. I have been more guarded too which is I know counterproductive. The thing is, I am starting to like things in my life and the fear of losing it all is difficult to conquer. I am trying to tell myself. I will not let this pain take it all away from me. Then I will catch myself thinking about the pain all the way home from work. I think that I am going to try therapy because I do have a lot of baggage, although I thought that I had already dealt with most of it years ago (after 3 years of therapy).
Thanks again,
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la kevin- is the ignoring the pain still working
