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la_kevin
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 Posted - 10/17/2007 : 23:47:52
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I just wanted to stop by to talk about my successes with doing the hard work.
The first three weeks was hard. I went through ranges of emotions I had never been close to feeling from therapy two times a week. I ended up in the hospital, handcuffs, and feeling like I was stuck in hell in my mind. Glad that's over. I adjusted to poking around in my mind and the anxiety it provoked gradually got less. I went through some sort of weird withdrawal from Klonopin and that lasted for a few weeks and now I know it was NOT tms.
From therapy I think about things differently now. I see things in a more "logical" light about myself. It's a strange feeling really. I am laughing more at things now, slowly getting back into things I loved doing, and care less about what others view me as(big step). The "self talk" part of this whole experience is a big hurdle but it takes practice and slowly every day it improves. The pain is the slowest part though, but instead of good hours like I had before, I have good DAYS which is an improvement. I'm not ready to go golfing or anything yet, but there is still more work to do. Funny, I am having pain while writing this when I have had VERY little pain all day, sneaky bastard this thing is.
I thought I would come back here when I was "all done and better", lol. What a silly thought and what stupid illogical pressure to put on myself. As if I can't "participate" in the world without me being totally "fixed". That's what TMS thinking does to you. It likes those little limits we put on ourselves to keep us from going forward in life or interacting with others, at least in my case. I'm learning more and more to see these illogical patterns in thought. TMS thinking is a SOB when it grabs a hold of your social perceptions, that is one of it's many goals.
As some of you know, I'm not a fan of posting daily on this forum (for my own life, no judgment towards others)so I guess I'll check back in and write some "profound" crap in a while, heee heee. Anyways, good luck all and be well. |
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shawnsmith
Czech Republic
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Posted - 10/18/2007 : 07:22:05
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La_kevin,
One thing about following Dr. Sarno's program is that you begin the process of knowing yourself better. You have some good insights about yourself and they will unfold even further as you read, journal and take time to think. Yes, it is important to not place pressure on yourself to recover within a certain time-frame as that, ironically, impedes recovery. It is also important to challenge those limitations your mind places upon you and this is why Dr. Sarno advices over and over again to resume normal activity and tell yourself that physical activity cannot cause you harm or damage.
La_kevin, I first heard about TMS over 3 years ago and since that time I have read extensively on the topic and have journaled literally hundreds of pages of personal insights, yet I have not come to a full recovery, much to my own personal dismay. This does not mean that Dr. Sarno's teachings are invalid, but that my unconscious mind is slow and resistant to grasp TMS concepts. If it were not for Dr. Sarno, however, I don't know where my life would be today. I would be on my back and unable to move.
You must be persistent and be convinced that there is nothing wrong with you. You must see the pain for what it is- a distraction from repressed emotions - and break off from all physical treatment programs. Finally, the resumption of normal activity is a must if you hope to regain your life. The progress may be slow and uneven, but the work you do today will prevent further suffering in the future.
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Sarno-ize it!
Read chapter 4 of Dr. Sarno's "The Divided Mind." Also chapers 3, 4 and 5 in Dr. Scott Brady's "Pain Free For Life" are very important. |
Edited by - shawnsmith on 10/18/2007 08:17:26 |
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skizzik
USA
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Posted - 10/18/2007 : 07:32:46
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la kevin, excellent post.
Shawn too...btw, has there been a kinder/gentler more shawnsmith in here lately? |
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shawnsmith
Czech Republic
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Posted - 10/18/2007 : 08:15:51
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I go in spurts. If I turn into an a-hole you have to learn to ignore me and I will get over it in time.
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Sarno-ize it!
Read chapter 4 of Dr. Sarno's "The Divided Mind." Also chapers 3, 4 and 5 in Dr. Scott Brady's "Pain Free For Life" are very important. |
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JohnD
USA
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Posted - 10/18/2007 : 16:27:06
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| Actually we don't have to learn how to ignore you, you need to learn how to not be that. |
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My Success so far.
