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ndb
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 Posted - 05/17/2006 : 07:20:48
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Hi all,
First, thanks to everyone for the great forum, I have been reading old posts for a couple of weekes and posting a bit of late. You guys are all awesome.
I am midway between my first two therapist visits. I have been journalling and writing lists religiously and it has helped during episodes of pain as well as overall pain. Over the last week pain has developed in my jaw, near one wisdom tooth. I know there is some tiny infection there, but I know its really TMS pain because last night, it was really bad, and I imagined to my self many painful scenarios from my childhood, and allowed myself to cry, scream, and feel hate at the 'perpetrators', and to feel my helplessness as a child, it eased up enough to let me go to sleep.
My problem is that I feel exhausted from calling up these emotional memories all the time. meanwhile the pain persists whatever i do. I am trying to ignore it and just do my daily stuff, but it is maniacally painful. Usually I woud be writhing in pain...at least thanks to the knowledge of TMS, I am calm. Any advice or similar stories would be appreciated. I have read the old posts on jaw/tooth pain which gave some relief. Would be great to know someone out there read this.
thanks,
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Edited by - ndb on 05/17/2006 07:22:21 |
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HilaryN
United Kingdom
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Posted - 05/17/2006 : 15:48:17
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Hi ndb,
When I first started I felt overwhelmed because I felt like I was being flooded with “substitution” symptoms and I felt I didn’t have the energy to tackle them all. So I think I can relate to how you are feeling.
I can’t think of any specific advice to give you, just encouragement. I’m now free of my RSI.
One other thing: you say you allow yourself to feel all the emotions from your childhood events, and I think that’s good.
In addition I think it’s good if you can resolve those feelings / memories by “forgiving” the people involved. I think as long as resentment stays there it will always be a negative factor. Perhaps it’s something you can work through with your therapist.
In “The Journey” by Brandon Bays, in which she describes a process of bringing up past memories and resolving them, forgiveness is a key part of the process. It involves having an imaginary conversation with the person / people involved, telling them how you feel about their action and imagining their response.
Anyway, all the best.
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ndb
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Posted - 05/17/2006 : 18:28:39
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Hi Hilary,
Thanks a lot for your message.
I like your point about forgiveness. I think though I really have to *feel* the forgiveness otherwise, I will be imposing on the "inner child" who at the moment is just feeling hurt and dosn't listen to reason. (I think I am politely trying to say: No! I don't want to forgive without the people involved realizing the misery they caused!) I will think about it and also see if therapy addresses this.
I feel like there are some "substitution" symptoms which are easy to deal with (e.g. sudden twinge in neck) and others feel like they have planted roots...they seem impossible to wish away :(
Thanks again, it felt good to have some conversation about it.
Regards,
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HilaryN
United Kingdom
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Posted - 05/18/2006 : 14:36:03
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I think though I really have to *feel* the forgiveness otherwise, I will be imposing on the "inner child" who at the moment is just feeling hurt and dosn't listen to reason.
Oh yes, definitely. The forgiveness has to be genuine, not forced or artificial.
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(I think I am politely trying to say: No! I don't want to forgive without the people involved realizing the misery they caused!)
That’s why I think the imaginary conversation is good, because you can get off your chest the things you want to say to them and make them understand how you feel. Then you can try and imagine what they would say, and by putting yourself in their shoes try and understand why they did what they did, which may help in forgiving them. If you don’t feel like forgiving them, you might not have fully got your feelings off your chest and you may want to say more, or there maybe more feelings which you haven’t expressed and it’s worth digging down to try and find what they are.
It’s something to take away and think about, as you say. Everyone has their own way to deal with it and this is just one way.
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some advice or encouragement needed
