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icelikeaninja
USA
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 Posted - 04/26/2006 : 00:57:54
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Hey all,
So I still have tms some days its bad and some days its good. Most recently I had an altercation with my moms husband.
When i was 12 my mother and I adopted a puppy who is now 10 years old. I recently moved out of my grandmothers house last august and in November I had to send my dog to the suburbs to live with my mom and her husband.
Her husband has a history of abuse mostly justs talks alot of garbage and insults you. He did hit my mom once and I have seen him hit dogs we had in the past.
My mother convinced me that if she took my dog it would be better for the dog because he can run free in the backyard instead of being in a house all day and going to the park a few times a week.
So last week my mom calls me hysterically and said her husband kicked my dog because he likes to dig holes in the backyard.
I immediatly called my friend up and we got a truck and took my dog back to my grandmothers house so now I am cramped because I have to look over my dog again and walk him on a full schedule even though I live on another side of town.
That is no problem but I know part of my must be angry.
The wierd part is I spoke with my therapist about this altercation and I cant feel any anger towards my mothers husband for all the evil stuff he does.
I hide it so well that it cant even come out. My dog being hit is stil fresh in my mind and I have hardly a vengful thought!
My therapist said even vengful thoughts are good but you dont seem to have anything.
Since my dog came back my pain has hieghtened but I still go to the gym and get on with my life.
I guess I have to write some more and find out what this is or atleat try.
Right now I feel hardly anything I just feel like a zombie.
I take no drugs and I do not drink so I dont know how to stop this cycle of not wanting to get exasterbated at this situation.
Another part of me is also scared that I will get angry and go too far to the point I might regret something.
WHere do I draw the line?
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altherunner
Canada
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Posted - 04/26/2006 : 20:22:39
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| I am sorry to hear about your dog. I love dogs. I don't live with one now because I work long hours. I think that it helps to vent anger like this by physical activity. Usually, for me, running is enough. Recently, I had a big blowup at home, and I felt much more anger, and I went out and punched a punching bag for an hour. I know this is only the conscious anger, but it really did seem to help. Being male, this is probably easier to do. I have female friends, however, that have done the same thing and felt equal relief. |
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icelikeaninja
USA
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Posted - 04/28/2006 : 12:40:35
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well the thing is. I can do that but I have been doing that all my life and I think if I punched a bag it would hinder any journaling I would want to do.
BTW yesterday I just got a wicked cold out of nowhere, it started off as allergys and now I have some sort of headcold.
I wonder if this is directly tms related.
I also bought Sarnos new book and I think it is the best! |
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