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westcoastram
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 Posted - 03/30/2006 : 22:59:59
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So I’ve been doing this TMS thing for about 5 weeks now. One of the reasons I haven’t gotten on the board yet is that I was afraid that my short stint in the “program” and my relative success would possibly be looked down upon by people with much greater issues than me. Now I say, Pssha! We’re all different and maybe my pains less or more than someone else but maybe I can help you and maybe you can help me – isn’t that what this is about?
Long story short – I’ve had pretty debilitating pain in my left shoulder for 3 years. It varies and usually, if I don’t use it at all, I can feel all right. Really debilitating, right? Well, add a searing leg pain at the top of the hamstring when I sat and walked farther than a block and you see things sucked. Well, 5 weeks ago my left shoulder was feeling good from physical therapy but the right developed almost the same symptoms. I finally called "bull****" and found Schechter (actually, it was a lucky series of events that led me to him but I was in enough misery that I said "this" must be it). Immediately, after reading Sarno's book - I felt the pain and discomfort begin to shift between my three pain sites (shoulders and leg). There began to be times where I felt little or no pain in two sites and some pain in the third.
This brings me to now – my shoulders are pain free but I have this constant searing pain in my leg. I try challenging it cause I know it’s TMS but man, it’s not backing down. Not like before (last few weeks) when I used all Schechter’s techniques and at least it would shift to a shoulder. It’s a pain to sit right now (I know.) In some ways this is worse because I’ve really opened up my world which had grown pretty small and I can’t get past this pain and every strategy in the books don't seem to be working. About two weeks ago, I began doing yoga and calisthenics, my leg actually felt fine while doing that and my shoulders ached but now the shoulders are fine and the leg aches - real bad.)
Has this happened to anyone else? Is this the last vestiges of my TMS making it’s last stand? I feel more helpless now than before. I do feel a decent amount of stress do to fear of failure which has been enhanced by my taking on way more responsibilty at work since I've been feeling better... I suspect that may have something to do with it but knowing that or thinking that doesn't help.
BTW – I’ve been seeing a therapist which has helped a TON – I started right off the bat so I feel like we covered a ton of bases in my emotional past and present. Help? What’s the next step?
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lilykins
USA
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Posted - 03/31/2006 : 07:13:35
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| Sounds like you are on the right track. I don't have any advice but can just tell you that I had debilitating back pain off and on for years, then was OK for a few years, then developed very painful sciatica, so I know how you feel with your leg pain. Since reading Sarno, I have improved a lot, but now feel like I'm at a stand-still just like you. I have pain in my hip and upper hamstring that comes and goes but is just as bothersome as when it was more painful because I've felt better and once I feel better, my tolerance for the pain goes down! I am just trying to continue using the principles, tell myself the herniated disc is normal and not the cause of my pain, there's nothing wrong with me, try to ignore the pain, and tell it to go away. It's a daily struggle but I'm keeping it up. Sorry I don't have any good advice but thought you'd like to know I feel similarly to you. |
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westcoastram
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Posted - 03/31/2006 : 11:21:12
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Thanks, it's great to know someone out there is in the same boat.
I do have to say that I really feel like this is the TMS's last gasp - last intensly painful and distracting gasp.
After going to therapy - I've totally realized I have HUGE control issues. And this is just one of those things I don't feel like I have control over so it perpetuates itself.
ARGH!!!!!
But thanks for the support. |
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lilykins
USA
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Posted - 03/31/2006 : 19:38:35
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| Today, I ran on my elliptical for 1.65 miles, did sit-ups and push-ups and then, while I was STANDING STILL talking to someone, my hip started hurting! Then it started hurting while I was out for a leisurely walk with my boyfriend and dog. So I got mad and said, "Fine, if you're going to hurt, I'll make it worth hurting" and I started to jog. The pain went away while I was jogging and came back when I slowed to a walk. WTF!! Also, I've noticed I'll often be fine on my day off and hurt on my work-days. So I really am gaining confidence in the TMS diagnosis. Hang in there, and I'll hang in there, too! |
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