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optimism
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Posted - 03/02/2006 : 13:31:16
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I have been in pain for 10 years (mostly back pain - I know it is TMS). I am still in the process of recovering and it goes very slowly.
I was sitting today and drinking coffee and thinking how my life will change after I am not in pain anymore. Maybe it does not want to get better. Since everything is around the pain, I was thinking once it is gone what I will be doing with all the time I now spend thinking about pain!! Maybe I am afraid to get better, for some reason. Maybe, maybe, maybe that's why it takes me forever to implement the TMS theory.
What are your experiences?
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Jena
USA
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Posted - 03/02/2006 : 13:38:39
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Honestly, ive heard someone else on this forum ask the same thing. I can not relate only because personally i can think of a million things to do or think about other then pain! trust me once the pain diminshes completely itll never enter your brain again. Youll say to your self years down the road " remember when i was in all that pain" i kinda forget what that feels like. I think tms (which is not a theory its a fact =) takes longer for people to get it going. one day you wont have the pain though because i thought my pain was never going to go away not for 1 second and it has for 2 months. Remember the sorrow that cannot vent itself in tears makes other organs weap.
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Saf
United Kingdom
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Posted - 03/02/2006 : 15:51:17
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I understand. I have forgotten what it is like to be "normal".
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joemccarthy
USA
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Posted - 03/02/2006 : 16:53:18
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[Haven't the need for the pain. Man, after I read TMP and the light dawned on Marblehead I awoke a few days after my first read and it was like I forgot to have my pain. When it dawned on me later in the morning I laughed my butt off:D]I don't know what traumas I've had that my little baby brain was trying to distract me from and with that morning laugh I realized I could care less. My activities had become more and more restricted and according to a neurosurgeon would get worse not better with the degree of pathology he read on an MRI. HAH! I'm doing stuff now that I had totally given up on, totally! Give it up and live it up!
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ssjs
USA
147 Posts |
Posted - 03/02/2006 : 17:34:25
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I haven't written in a very long time, but I am one of those people who was totally cured by Dr. Sarno and have been pain free (except for a moment here and there...and I literally mean a moment, till I talk it out of myself)for almost 20 years.
I am totally Sarno. No meditation, no other self help books, no medication or pep talks from anyone else. MILITANT Sarno! Evangelical Sarno!
I did go for Psychotherapy and my life has changed and is still changing dramatically. From a person who was afraid to actually take the hairdressers test even after I had been a hairdresser for years (along with the stress of working without a license, I just couldn't advance myself in any way. totally inert ) Being pain free enabled me to go back to college, own my own business...and best of all, since my pain actually made me finally deal with my problems, I now know myself better than I could have imagined...warts and all, and I can deal with my life so much better.
Am I always happy? NO! Do I always understand why I am mad or unhappy? NO! But I understand that there is no reason to be in physical pain...so I am not!
My advice...Go do whatever the heck you want to do.Just do it all.
Baby steps are good for some...but I just took the plunge and did whatever i wanted to. And my back pain had actually caused a paralysis of my foot! I could't move it...But I went out and ran anyway. And now 20 years later I am still alive and still moving...dispite the fact that a chiropractor said I would be sorry if I stopped coming. And despite my terrible looking discs as told to me by a neurologist!
I could't be better!
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art
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Posted - 03/02/2006 : 17:57:00
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Optimism,
Congratulations on a very astute insight. I think just the very fact that you ask yourself this question..that you have the integrity and fearlessness to ask it of yourself...demonstrates that you're going to do just fine.. |
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optimism
44 Posts |
Posted - 03/03/2006 : 12:04:45
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Thanks all. |
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AriG00
USA
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Posted - 03/04/2006 : 02:01:43
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Hi, I am new to this site, I wanted to respond but I can personally understand, I think part of your problem, and mine, has to do with this "fear of change." I think the fact you are thinking about it and focusing on the fact that you are fearing change is important to recovery and something you must continue to do. Figure out why you are scared, read some books on fear, anxiety and worrying about change, work on your attitude, because sometimes you get "used" to the pain, in a way its an addictive behavoir, you must slowly become used to NOT focusing on your body, get used to thinking positive, get used to envisioning your future WITHOUT pain, get used to not being used to pain, whew! Well..
I definitely think you're going to be fine especially that you seem aware of your problem. I am still working on getting better too, and still have my symptoms of dizzyness and panic attacks and back pain, but every day I become more clear of what the cause is, and am getting better and better, my mental block, fear of change is still there, but I'm working through it, posting motivating notes on my walls, doing positive things, setting a routine where I meditate and then think about my anger, and work on TMS priciples, it helps emmensley when you have a routine. Anyway, hope that is insightful. Stay up!
quote: Originally posted by optimism
I have been in pain for 10 years (mostly back pain - I know it is TMS). I am still in the process of recovering and it goes very slowly.
I was sitting today and drinking coffee and thinking how my life will change after I am not in pain anymore. Maybe it does not want to get better. Since everything is around the pain, I was thinking once it is gone what I will be doing with all the time I now spend thinking about pain!! Maybe I am afraid to get better, for some reason. Maybe, maybe, maybe that's why it takes me forever to implement the TMS theory.
What are your experiences?
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Tunza
New Zealand
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Posted - 03/06/2006 : 03:29:58
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Just tagging this as a searchable SuccessStory because it contains Sandy/ssjs's success story.
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