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altherunner
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 Posted - 02/25/2006 : 12:03:38
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I also have lost a fear of death since reading and listening to Brian Weiss, Mirrors of Time,a self hypnosis regression program.
I have had hypnosis before, and used self hypnosis tapes and cds for motivation, etc. This cd put me into a deep sleep, and I dreamed of another life and the end of that life. It was all pleasant, some fear as death happened, then peace after. I felt peaceful the next day, so I tried again, and had a dream of a short life that died violently, in a lot of fear. The deep peace came again, and has stayed with me since. I lost interest in pursuing further past lives, but it did help me, and I now know that there really is no death of anything that matters, such as joy, love, or peace. |
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Singer_Artist
USA
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Posted - 07/05/2006 : 18:10:48
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Wow...It was so meant to be that I found this old thread that Vikki began in February...I read all of it and got so much out of it...Earlier today I was going to start a thread entitled "Fear of Death." I just randomly clicked on a page and there it was right in front of me..Vikki, I know Exactly how you feel on so many levels..And I still have a strong fear of death, dying and especially living a life full of pain...I lost my parents 16 years ago, only 5 months apart..It was beyond traumatic...My boyfriend (LOML) died when I was 19 and several friends have died fairly recently..I have had my share of dealing w/ loved ones dying...In some ways this has made my fear worse, but in other ways better...Let me explain...
I was an Agnostic for many many years just dabbling in everything from Tibetan Buddhism to the Occult...(not proud of that one)...
I have been thinking about the Meaning of Life and whether there is a God and an after life for many years and could not grasp it with my intellect...I was a Math and Psychology major in college so although I am also an artist/singer...I have a very skeptical and scientific mind...(Probably part of the reason I battle w/ completely surrendering to the idea I have TMS and not something structural! It's a matter of FAITH, always a big one for me...)
Around 8 or 9 years ago I felt the urge to go to church..to touch my roots (Catholic upbringing) as a way to honor my parents and try to increase my faith once again..I was lucky enough to run into an amazing 80 year old priest named Father Tom...He gave me a book to read written by Harold Kushner, a Jewish rabbi..And Father Tom told me he too was a Silva Mind COntrol graduate...I thought..."WoW, what a cool priest!! things have changed since i have been to church!"
I started going to Mass and just noticed things were different, more open..less judgemental of other religions and non believers...I felt at home..Since then I now go to Messianic synagogue and Christian churches as well...But it isn't about going to church...It's about Feeling it,,,deep inside...And about surrender and taking a leap of Faith literally...It's really just a choice, not something to ponder on and on for years like I did with my limited human mind...I came to a sort of cellular knowingness (I know, I sound like a California New Ager now...lol) but really...I cannot even explain it in words..It was a 'moment' but then it really happened gradually at the same time...I just Know now in my heart that God is really, that Jesus is His Son who died for us and that we are going to be A-OK...We will be joined in Heaven w/ our lost loved ones, we will see them again..
Believe me, this is not something I 'force' myself to believe in just to make sure i go to Heaven or to make myself feel better in this life..I really Believe..Yet, I sometimes have doubts as well..Everyone does...Even Peter and Thomas in the Bible had doubts..and they witnessed the miracles of Jesus first hand! They had proof in front of their eyes! So we must be gentle w/ ourselves as well and remember our humanness...We are only human, we are sinners by nature...and it's all okay...God knows that and loves each and every one of us! So in short...for me...it was about letting go of trying to think my way into believing and just surrendering and feeling my way into it...Since my Faith has increased and continues to, my fear of death becomes less and less... |
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Posted - 07/06/2006 : 05:34:49
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Art,
That scene in Hanna and Her Sisters is one of my faves as well. I also have this fear and I wonder in awe how some faithful can honestly say they don't fear dying.
To Vikki - I guess by now you can see you are not alone. I also worried tremendously about illness and death. Every symptom was an indication of some horrible eventuality. Catastrophizing at its worst. Funny thing is, since I realized I have TMS, I often assume most of my symptoms are related to that and I don't worry anymore. Even though I know that some things are real. I don't let it take over and it usually goes away.
One thing that helps me a lot is something a woman in her late 70's told me. She said that when she looks back at her life, she's worried about so much and virtually all of it did not reach the eventuality she feared. Even when bad stuff comes down the pike, we deal w/it. Sounds very polly-anna-ish but so true.
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Fear of getting older/ fear of death
