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icelikeaninja
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 Posted - 01/12/2006 : 13:20:59
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So after New Years my days have been 100 percent close to pain free. It shocked and even surprised me. The last few days it has been comming back but mostly at nights now which didnt happen before.
Today I journaled and cried about a friend I lost contact with when my mother made me move with her husband to Pennsylvania when I was a little kid.
I tried calling this long lost friend and it turns out he probably has his own family etc and kept asking me if I could call him later or the next day.
He barely remembered me so I wrote about my relationship with him and how I was taken away from my best friend.
I could not stop crying it was ridiculous it just came out of nowhere.
SO now some of pains are coming back to the same places they left but I know now its TMS because I did have 100 percent days.
Anyway I cant figure out why it came back?
Any suggestions?
BTW since I have gotten better on new years I have been being my old self and might buy a house maybe its the stress from getting back to normal and wanting to do normal everyday things again like make big decisions like this? |
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h2oskier25
USA
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Posted - 01/12/2006 : 14:30:57
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Congrats on your progress so far.
I personally think that TMS isn't any one thing that's been bothering you all these years. It's more of a habit your mind has of repressing feelings resulting in pain.
Old Habits die hard. The long lost friend probably isn't the only issue you're repressing.
Keep at it. Keep journaling. Keep acknowledging that the new house is stressful, even though you're really looking forward to it.
Best wishes
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robin
USA
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Posted - 01/12/2006 : 14:50:28
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You wrote that the crying just came from nowhere. It probably didn't just come from nowhere and you might want to look at that some more. Are there other losses in your life you have not grieved for?
Also, I don't know if you meant to say this or not, but you writing "it was ridiculous" is interesting to me. I wonder if you can see how that seems that you are being really hard on yourself. It isn't ridiculous to cry from nowhere. Your feelings are so important and you need to look at that.
I believe that you can't be so hard on yourself- meaning that you can't expect 100% days all the time and if you aren't having 100% days you must be DOING something wrong. This takes time and you have to be nice to yourself and not expect perfection all the time. It's okay if you get reminders (under the guise of pain) to focus on your psychological well-being. Thanks yourself for them.
I truly believe that I am fortunate to have reminders (pain) occassionally because it forces me to deal with the present. There are other people who never get reminders until it has eaten them up completely, ie: cancer and other severe illnesses. |
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icelikeaninja
USA
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Posted - 01/14/2006 : 12:18:51
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Actually my dad died when I was 9 and my close Uncle and Grandfather died when I was 15 and 16.
The only person I really cried for was my Uncle but its wierd because I didnt really get to know him until his dieing days.
Even though I miss my father and grandfather its like there deaths had no affect on me. I just felt blah when they died and hardly cried.
I techincally got over there deaths in a day or 2. I didnt respond normally and I still probably wouldnt even though they did me no wrong. |
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Jim1999
USA
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Posted - 01/15/2006 : 22:13:51
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Originally posted by icelikeaninja
So after New Years my days have been 100 percent close to pain free. It shocked and even surprised me. The last few days it has been comming back but mostly at nights now which didnt happen before.
Today I journaled and cried about a friend I lost contact with when my mother made me move with her husband to Pennsylvania when I was a little kid.
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SO now some of pains are coming back to the same places they left but I know now its TMS because I did have 100 percent days.
Anyway I cant figure out why it came back?
Any suggestions?
BTW since I have gotten better on new years I have been being my old self and might buy a house maybe its the stress from getting back to normal and wanting to do normal everyday things again like make big decisions like this?
Danny,
Congratulations on your progress! Even though it didn't last, it's great to have had some days that were close to 100% pain free.
As far as why you're pain came back, it could be from the stress of thinking about buying a house. That's a major decision that could cause problems for many of us.
On the other hand, you might want to read Helen's story on pp. 12-14 of The Mindbody Prescription. She had fully recovered from her TMS, but then had a major relapse. It turns out that she still had some very significant repressed emotions. After her initial recovery, the emotions were deeply repressed, so TMS wasn't needed to contain them. When an event drew Helen's attention to those emotions, the TMS was needed to keep the emotions repressed. When Helen got the emotions out, she was fine again. I don't know if this is what's happening to you, but it's something to consider.
Good luck in getting to the root of your problems!
Jim
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Stryder
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Posted - 01/16/2006 : 12:11:00
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Hi Danny,
Keep going, you are doing great.
Its normal to have symptoms come and go, change or move around to other locations as you put TMS on the run. Take this as a scoreboard that you are winning and TMS is loosing.
I agree with Jim1999 that buying a house is stress city. I have realized that being a perfectionist and wanting to always be in control, a complicated major purchase like that trashes your perception that you are always in control. Since there are whole gaggle of rules and other people ("professionals") involved with you in this purchase its impossible to be in control of the entire process. So my only advice is to recognize that you will NOT be 100% in control, and coming to grips with that realization may help you thru the process.
Lastly, find an ASHI CERTIFIED home inspector, all the other associations are scams. Ask for a certificate of insurance for error and omissions. Get 3 references. Do not accept an ASHI Candidate, they are in training. http://www.ashi.org
Take care, -Stryder
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icelikeaninja
USA
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Posted - 01/16/2006 : 21:41:51
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So my pains that have come back are nill.
Today I went to the gym for the first time in a year and it felt great. Didnt over due anything just kept it simple.
The dull pains are also turning into bad break outs on my face. I have never had this much acne on my face ever!
Its so wierd.
Anyway in another 2 days i do ab work which is my biggest goal yet. My pains stem in the lower rib area on one side sometimes both and iam a little scared but know this must be my goal in convincing that I know what tms is all about.
I will let you all know of my progress. |
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icelikeaninja
USA
316 Posts |
Posted - 01/18/2006 : 21:54:52
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one more thing guys and i know this has some back track.
I was not sensitive to most of the pressure points Sarno described as TMS.
Does this matter and has anyone not had pressure points but still have tms? |
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icelikeaninja
USA
316 Posts |
Posted - 01/21/2006 : 11:10:21
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So did a vigorous workout at the gym last night. Feel good nothing new nohiing bad the pains are pressure feelings are still the same it didnt make it worst or better.
I know now my concious mind has made the TMS decision 1-- percent but why do I have doubts that will come in the middle of nowhere as if some just whispered it into my ear? |
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icelikeaninja
USA
316 Posts |
Posted - 01/24/2006 : 18:05:07
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So I finally did that ab workout that would have normally killed me and it did nothing.
I also spoke to Sarno today and told him what was up. My pains are dying down and Iam getting less of them but as this has been happening I have gotten the worst acne on my face.
Sarno reccomended a TMS dermatologist who will probably give me something for it and said "I am on the right path and I am so glad you told me that you are getting acne" haha |
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100 percent days!?
