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Suz
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 Posted - 07/28/2005 : 11:06:11
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Hey all,
As you know, I have had a breakthrough with my pain - in considering breaking off my engagement. Ever since, I started thinking about long buried feelings, the pain has stopped. I am still confused as to whether I should go ahead with this marriage or not - certainly not in November and maybe never.
Along with my back pain, I have started to eat whatever I want. I have restricted my diet for 10 years - eating no dairy, wheat, sugar, carbohydrates etc. I suddenly realized that I should take the same attitude, not get caught up in fear etc. My blood tests came back showing perfect health. I had to stop and realize that there is nothing wrong with me and I should eat what I want - obviously make healthy choices.
I HAVE HAD NO REACTIONS!!!. I have not broken out in Hives (normally from dairy. I have no constipation (first time in 10 years I haven't had a problem)I am drinking coffee - just in teh morning with no sleep disturbances.
The awful fatigue has gone. I feel rested and full of energy.
I went running again last night with NO PAIN.
This feels like a miracle. I feel like I have been let out of jail. I have suffered from the symptoms for 12 years.
THIS IS INCREDIBLE!
I am going to call Dr. Sarno and tell him what has happened to me. This is a testament to his work. Repressed emotions have been responsible for all my physical ailments.
I am going to continue doing the same work - seeing the psychologist for a little longer. She has really helped me to allow myself to feel. If physical symptoms appear again, I know what to do. I just have to sit and think about what is bothering me |
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moose1
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Posted - 07/28/2005 : 12:42:06
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Wow, congrats on the breakthrough! I'm curious to know what the nature of your back pain was. Was it chronic, 24/7? Low, mid, upper back? I also have the occassioanl break out of hives...usually during family gatherings at Christmas, etc.
Great to hear of your success!
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Suz
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Posted - 07/28/2005 : 13:58:01
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Sciatic pain for 10 years - one year ago, I could barely walk - could only wear sneakers and was often flat on my back.
I saw Sarno a year ago and have been working on getting to the bottom of this pain and other ailments for that time. I started seeing a psychologist (through him) about 4 months ago.
After seeing the psychologist,the pain shifted from sciatic to upper back - on the right under the shoulder blade. This would only happen at night time. It was so excruciating, I couldn't breathe half the time and would wake up all night. I was exhausted. I then developed chronic fatigue - even after sleeping, I was really tired.
When I discovered all these repressed feelings about my fiance and started facing them and feeling them, out of the blue, the pain stopped. Just like that!! It has been 4 days now. |
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moose1
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Posted - 07/28/2005 : 14:57:00
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That's great to hear. I wish I could have similar luck. I've been battling chronic LBP for about 4 years now, despite practicing Sarno for about the past three years. Part of my problem is that 4 years ago, before I knew a thing about mindbody medicine and Sarno, I had surgery to repair a ruptured disc that was, I was told, pressing on a nerve and causing me blinding leg pain. Well, the surgery did result in a total resolution of the leg pain. Since then, however, I've had this chronic, nagging ache right in the spot where they made the incision. The pain doesn't move around and is always worse at night and, especially, in the morning. As far as Sarno goes, you name it, I've tried it. Psychologists, journaling, etc. etc.. No luck.
Anyway, it's always great to hear folks on this board have success. It must be extremely empowering.
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Suz
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Posted - 07/28/2005 : 15:14:03
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Moose,
It has taken a lot of work and it really came down to total focus on the psychological. I stopped thinking about my physical ailments. I started doing things bit by bit that I used to be fearful of - a big one was running. The next one was eating different foods. I stopped reading about food allergies etc. This reprieve is very new and so I am going to continue all my work.
The shift happened almost by chance for me as a girlfriend called me and started telling me about how she was worried about how anxious I was about marriage. She said it was almost as if I was sick. It started me thinking - my head spinning. For the first time, I let myself dwell on the doubts I have. I have always pushed them away. I cannot believe that this conflict inside of me was creating this pain. It is as if I have always thought that my fiance was immature and not what I was looking for but I couldn't stand admitting it. I couldn't stand admitting that he might not be right for me. It is still scarey to consider but I have to.
Just cancelling the wedding in November was a very big, courageous move for me. I told my fiance that I wanted space. That was very painful. I am worried about him. It is hard to think about what I want - i seem to just want to make him happy and forget my own desires. |
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moose1
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Posted - 07/28/2005 : 15:24:44
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The whole marraige thing seems like an instance where you have to go with your gut. If it doesn't seem right deep down and it's causing that kind of anguish, then it sounds like you made the right move. A lot of people don't and they end up in bad marraiges. Imagine the pain you'd be in then! I have more than a few married friends who regret going down that road. No big shock that some of them have all sorts of physical and emotional ailments. You should congratulate yourself for being so brave. I seriously doubt you'll regret it.
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Posted - 07/28/2005 : 16:25:13
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| Moose1 was hit the nail on the head when he writes: "...you have to go with your gut." I think this is the secret. Many times we are thinking with our heads and this serves to repress our emotions, and it is our repressed emotions which are the source of our problems. There is an inner wisdom and guide in each and every one of us which we fail to tap into. |
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marytabby
USA
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Posted - 07/29/2005 : 08:00:53
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Laura
USA
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Posted - 08/01/2005 : 16:06:40
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Way to go, Suz! Keep up the good work.
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Pain/Food allergies/fatigue GONE!
