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Screensize: 640 x 480 800 x 600 1024 x 768 1280 x 1024 UserName: Password: Format Mode: Basic  Help  Prompt  Format: Font Andale Mono Arial Arial Black Book Antiqua Century Gothic Comic Sans MS Courier New Georgia Impact Lucida Console Script MT Bold Stencil Tahoma Times New Roman Trebuchet MS Verdana   Size 1 2 3 4 5 6   Color Black Red Yellow Pink Green Orange Purple Blue Beige Brown Teal Navy Maroon LimeGreen Message: * HTML is OFF * Forum Code is ON Smilies [quote][i]Originally posted by smashist[/i] [br]The following is an excerpt from my list of rage and stress generating phenomena: PERFECTLY RECOVERING VS. RETURNING TO LIFE The recovery pressure is all around me. I'm experimenting with belief-system restructuring. I believe that knowledge is power in this case, if you can redesign the patterns in your head, you can eliminate TMS responses. TMS only sticks around because it's psychologically conditioned to be there, so I need to go back and start reconditioning the old way I used to live before anything bothered me. This, however, comes with a lot of pressure to perform, perfectly recover, etc. OVERDOING IT, BATTLING Visualizations: I drive myself kind of crazy because I automatically attack every single little pinch or pang of discomfort instead of letting it be. When I'm in this fighting mode I don't really get anywhere, because I'm actually just giving the system attention when it doesn't deserve it. I should go do something else, something I enjoy, or at least something. Bottom line--there's nothing wrong, move on. We all hear a lot of stories of people who recovered very fast from TMS and we're all jealous. I think that those people tend to have a calmer and better outlook on recovery, and their personality characteristics don't impede their progress as much. Mine, however, do. So, enter my worst enemy: BATTLING. When I'm fighting TMS manifestations, I get NOWHERE. The more attention I give them in my conscious experience, the more they latch onto me. The more I try to control them, the more they seem to exist everywhere I look. I can challenge the pain all I want, run miles, scream, and shout at it but it doesn't do me a lick of good. So, what helps? Destroying the FEAR. Why was I battling it in the first place? I was afraid if I didn't constantly do something about it, it would keep bothering me and "ruining" my life. This is the problem right here. Still, I am afraid of the symptoms, and I'm putting wayyy too much energy into their destruction. When Sarno says that knowledge is the penecillin, I think a huge factor in the demise of TMS is "calming the hell down." Knowing exactly what is going on banishes fear, provides a good outlook, soothes the intense rage and uncomfortable emotions, and provides for a stable ground to recover mentally from this whole thing. Being in intense battle against your symptoms all the time = more stress, more pain, more frustration, and for me... NO PROGRESS. Thanks yeah right. [/quote]   Check here to include your profile signature.