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im2bob
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Posted - 03/01/2012 : 07:53:10
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My first post the other day gave some background on my TMS. I ordered Steve O's book and am about half way through it. Steve, if you read this, I am really enjoying the book. I am so happy for your discovery of your real self after so many years of pain.
I am 99.99% convinced TMS is my issue. I say this because I am still in great pain. I feel it wane at times, especially as a re-read sections of Healing Back Pain and as I am reading Steve O's book. I am being very active and, as I stated in my first post, I am actually running a marathon on Sunday. I know, that sounds crazy, but I am NOT letting this pain hold me back. But trust me, it hurts.
I am feeling very much in the way of three steps back, two steps forward. Steve mentioned this in his book and it was funny that I read that yesterday just hours after thinking it to myself. I am confident that it is my unconscious fighting back and that it will ultimately lose. I believe this is just a necessary part of the healing process.
About my dreams the last two nights. I do not dream much. At least I don't normally remember my dreams. But as I have really stepped up my fight these last few days, I have twice woken up from the following dreams. 1) Snakes. I was leaving a (my) home. My wife was there, I turned to leave with by briefcase in hand (I don't usually carry a briefcase). I looked down to see a snake draped over the breifcase. I fell to the ground. There were many snakes slithering around. I felt the ground quake and I awoke. 2) I was on a jet plane with my older brother. The plane had to crash-land without landing gear. We landed, skidded for a long time, sparks flew, the plane stopped, we were safe.
Anyone care to comment on the dreams? I googled their meaning and the prevalent messages were 1) Snakes = symbol of the unconscious, healing and resolving and an untamed or untapped part of self (SteveO "whoa"!) 2) Plane crash = overly high goals, lack of confidence, self doubt.
I am wondering if I am over-thinking and trying too hard. Maybe I should put down the books, try very hard not to be intimidated or concerned by the pain and go forward with life. I tend to be a fixer, so I am constantly trying to figure out what specific repressed emotion my unconsious is trying to keep buried. Boy, it could be a lot of things. I had a VERY non-present father. I cannot recall a single time we did something one-on-one when I was a kid. He has cancer and I had to go take care of him last week. Is this it? Do I really need to figure this out, or can I just move on with the knowledge that it's just SOME REPRESSED EMOTION causing rage in my unconscious.
OK, I'm rambling but I would really appreciate any thoughts here. |
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tennis tom
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Posted - 03/01/2012 : 10:36:10
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quote: Originally posted by im2bob
... I ordered Steve O's book and am about half way through it. Steve, if you read this, I am really enjoying the book. I am so happy for your discovery of your real self after so many years of pain.
(tt's answer: I'll put my comments in parentheses since all the Format tools no longer work for me like BOLD, Italics, etc. They all come up at the end of my post instead. If anyone knows how I can fix this please tell me. Sorry this post is going to look like s!!t) (tt: I just got SteveO's book too.
...I am being very active and, as I stated in my first post, I am actually running a marathon on Sunday. I know, that sounds crazy, but I am NOT letting this pain hold me back.
(tt: Running a marathon is a great accomplishment, let us know how you do.)
...I am confident that it is my unconscious fighting back and that it will ultimately lose. I believe this is just a necessary part of the healing process.
(tt: Yep, a great step in taking control of your health and life.)
...I am wondering if I am over-thinking and trying too hard. Maybe I should put down the books, try very hard not to be intimidated or concerned by the pain and go forward with life.
(tt: Yes! Over-thinking results in paralysis by analysis. If you're running a marathon you are doing plenty already, finish the book though. Understanding TMS by rote is a good first-aid kit to have in your fanny-pack.)
...I tend to be a fixer, so I am constantly trying to figure out what specific repressed emotion my unconsious is trying to keep buried.
(tt: Don't try to find the black bullet emotional incident from your buried past. Dr. Sarno says it is NOT necessary. You only need to understand how the TMS theory operates, no need to lie on the couch.)
...I had a VERY non-present father.
(tt: Most of us probably did, they were too busy working to make our lives more comfortable.)
...He has cancer and I had to go take care of him last week. Is this it?
(tt: YES! Take a look at the Rahe-Holmes test.)
..Do I really need to figure this out, or can I just move on with the knowledge that it's just SOME REPRESSED EMOTION causing rage in my unconscious.
(tt: You don't have to figure this out, if it's TMS, it's just what you said. Good luck, and enjoy your tapering-off runs.)
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TAKE THE HOLMES-RAHE STRESS TEST http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holmes_and_Rahe_stress_scale
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Edited by - tennis tom on 03/01/2012 10:37:44 |
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