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Edbl79
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 Posted - 01/09/2012 : 21:20:28
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Reading Sarn's books, visiting message boards, journaling, saying affirmations, talking to myself, talking to my wife and so on are all great resources but if you get stuck in a certain thought pattern progress can be hard and slow. That's me. That will be me. That was me. I've been doing everything I thought I was supposed to be doing and I thought I was doing it right. I'm doing what everyone else is doing, I have the knowledge. CURE ME KNOWLEDGE!!! Every day that's what I've been telling myself. It worked for this person and doing exactly what they did will work for me. Stop being scared, stop focusing on the pain all while being scared that the pain isn't ever going to stop. CURE ME KNOWLEDGE!!! See and feel your past. Write about it and realize it. All those memories you've repressed over the years, just unrepress them right now. Think about it and then think about it more. Are you feeling it yet? Is that memory from when you were 12 alive in you in right now? You're supposed to be sad, so cry. You're supposed to be angry so scream. You're supposed to be better so go run 5 miles and do 100 situps and 25 push ups. CURE ME KNOWLEDDGE!!! It's been a day, it's been a week, it's been a month, why aren't you better? Why aren't you sleeping through the night, why aren't you sleeping in bed or on your side? Why aren't you sitting in that chair? Why aren't you driving for longer then 20 minutes at a time? CURE ME KNOWLEDGE!!!
Yep that's me. That's my thought process. Start feeling better and do it tonight and when you don't wake up tomorrow and do it all over again.
The difference though, until tonight I had no idea I was doing it. I don't know what happened but it's like the expression goes, a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. Truly seeing yourself for who you are is a great experience. I don't know that I can desribe any more or better than that. In this moment I feel more positive and full of hope then I have for some time now. I hope to describe more of how I got to this point at a later time but for right now I just felt like I had to say it. Just know that it's ok for you to feel good and that you will get there. |
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bryan3000
USA
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Posted - 01/11/2012 : 00:00:02
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This was extremely helpful. Thank you!
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-1/2010 - Developed chronic sinus problems. ENTs/Docs can't find anything
-5/29/2010 - Doc gives cocktail of allergy meds which induces first ever panic attack/anxiety.
-7/16/2010 - Anxiety stays/worsens - put on Xanax
2/1/2011 - Began Xanax taper - Withdrawal starts - full body chaos
-6/11/2011 - Last dose of Xanax. Physical/emotional chaos continues for several months.
-Now: Taking it day by day, looking for real answers and ways to heal myself without medical poison. |
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Resources are great but.....
