Just realizing how bizarre some of my TMS manifestations are. I have had intermittent arm pain for almost a year. For the most part, I ignore it because I've got too many other minor symptoms competing for my attention. But every so often, the arm again takes center stage and then I become almost panicky about it.
Another example is a toe that I got an avulsion fracture on 6 weeks ago. No big deal, not even painful except when it happened. But every now and then I think I feel some vague symptom there and I begin to panic that maybe it didn't heal correctly and I feel like running to have another x-ray to be sure. In a few minutes I go from calm to feeling like I MUST get it checked out as soon as possible. I'm finding that if I postpone doing anything, the symptom and the anxiety disappears...until the next time.
The point is, depending on my level of stress, what else is going on in my life...I will experience symptoms or not. It is so strange (but seemingly, more proof of pschosomatic origin) that one day, or several days, I could be oblivious of symptoms and then suddenly start experiencing them. Nothing external has changed. If injury, logic would say each passing day should see improvement. But if psychosomatic, the ups and downs would be controlled by my mental life instead.
This is all very interesting to observe. I must admit that I am getting better at observing rather than reacting though I am not always successful. |
Stress & TMS
Posted - 10/17/2011 : 19:53:23
