I might be experiencing symptom imperative, but I'm not sure. Intellecutally I know that I need to get myself checked out by a doctor. I know that my doctor will send me for ANOTHER CT Scan. I just don't want to do it. I'd like to be able to convince myself that this really is just TMS, but the hypochondriac/perfectionist in me wants to know *for sure*. I'm freaking out in the back of my head that this is something more serious. Damn, bad habits are hard to break.
I really thought once I had found TMS that the doctor's appointments, diagnostic tests, and medical bills would all finally stop. I'm sure that many of you have the same frustrations--the seemingly endless parade of office visits and evaluations, the tests that show nothing, or better yet the tests that show something that isn't really causing your problem. I just want to be FREE from all of that B.S.
Incidentally, my right leg is very numb and achey today, and today is a somewhat stressful day for me. In fact, the last two weeks have been rough. Do the math on that one!
TMS is the devil.  |
Venting about the medical process
Posted - 05/28/2009 : 10:29:50
