I know myself very well. I know that this all boils down to my self esteem being extremely low and having to turn to others for a feeling of accomplishment or success. I don't give myself enough credit for anything. I am also worried that my wife will lose interest in me and I will be alone. I know that I have anger due to the fact that I worry that if I don't let my wife have kids, our relationship will suffer. I am always doubting myself and I am lucky that most of the time people compliment me. When I hurt myself in the gym a long time ago, I was going to the gym to compete with others and boost my self confidence. That act was fueled by anger. I could feel rage when i lifted weights. I still feel anger that I was rejected by my first love interest. I am constantly wondering what was it that made her reject me and only want friendship. I wish I did not feel the need for everyone to approve and love me.
quote:I am also worried that my wife will lose interest in me and I will be alone.
bingo ! anxiety is rage jammed up against fear
quote:I wish I did not feel the need for everyone to approve and love me.
you wouldn't be human if you didn't have this feeling.It doesn't need to go away for you to recover.You just nailed it on the screws by illuminating it.
Digging
Posted - 12/23/2004 : 09:05:09
