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hkp
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 Posted - 07/14/2008 : 11:02:33
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Hi all:
First, I want to thank LA Kevin for his post in Freedom From Fibro this weekend. I printed that one out!
I have another question. Over the past two months as I have been dealing with genitourinary problems (I won’t even go into specific symptoms), I have also had about a dozen OTHER TMS symptoms or equivalents that I have been able to clearly recognize as TMS and either banish or at least reduce to a “come and go” basis. These symptoms aren’t freaking me out.
The genitourinary symptoms and continued crushing anxiety are the ones I can’t seem to shake. I’ve been considering reasons why:
1) My doctor put me on another round of antibiotics (which I hate!) as another elimination step, and after that exam and taking them, I’ve actually been feeling WORSE. Did it install too much doubt for me to accept benign mindbody processes? (even though I can FEEL how tight my pelvis is)
2) So as a result of the new doubt, I can’t follow Kevin’s steps?
3) Or do I subconsciously want to hold on to one or two symptoms longer, even though my conscious mind completely wants them gone?
If #3, has anyone dealt with this? Do you accept that your mindbody isn’t willing to relinquish part of its strategy yet, and that maybe it’s trying to tell you something? Do you keep asking yourself about he whys, the emotions, or do you just try to forget about it all?
I’m confused and it panics me that I could be holding on to this.
On the positive side, I started a mediation class yesterday, and was actually able to mostly forget about the pain for several moments here and there.
Thanks for any thoughts-
hkp
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mizlorinj
USA
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Posted - 07/14/2008 : 13:26:19
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Interesting point in #3 on your list. I am reading Your Body Speaks Your Mind and there is a lot on the seeming benefits of keeping your symptoms--familiarity being one of them! It gives exercises (written--not physical) to write through why this is. I got the book at my library. Worth checking out.
I also think if you don't really want to be taking antibiotics, your body will not respond well to them. (I'm not an expert on antibiotics since I can't remember the last time I took any.) I do remember the steroid pack they gave me for my herniated disc and I remember thinking "why am I taking this stuff--it is poison" and I remember being very sick from them! Kind of funny now!
-Lori
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la_kevin
USA
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Posted - 07/14/2008 : 23:51:08
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Thanks for the kind words, but I really didn't think people would react to my posts so eagerly. It's odd to see.
Genitourinary symptoms. Ahh those are fun. Paying attention to your stream of urine, thinking, "Hey, why is this not as strong as it was".
Or , "Hey, when I masturbate or have sex it feels werid down there" :)
The mind can do a lot for that stuff(TMS).
On the other hand, you're on DRUGS. Yes, drugs.:)
So I can't really say what the deal is. If it's TMS or a reaction to a FOREIGN SUBSTANCE in your body.
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I have another question. Over the past two months as I have been dealing with genitourinary problems (I won’t even go into specific symptoms), I have also had about a dozen OTHER TMS symptoms or equivalents that I have been able to clearly recognize as TMS and either banish or at least reduce to a “come and go” basis. These symptoms aren’t freaking me out.
This is good actually. Your mind isn't panicking over the smaller equivalents, and you recognize it. Think back and remember a time when you thought you were dying of some horrible disease, and see how you mind isn't alarmed at them anymore.
2) I didn't know I had any 'steps'. I'm not some TMS author or something. LOL
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If #3, has anyone dealt with this? Do you accept that your mindbody isn’t willing to relinquish part of its strategy yet, and that maybe it’s trying to tell you something? Do you keep asking yourself about he whys, the emotions, or do you just try to forget about it all?
Bingo. Acceptance is a great one. I accept that I still have TMS equivalents myself. They will go in time too. But the acceptance helps you see them for what it is, a process. Don't put pressure on yourself to 'get all the TMS out" in one big swoop. TMS has it's own plans.
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I’m confused and it panics me that I could be holding on to this.
Don't panic. Panic is about the future. The future hasn't happened. 90% of life is out of your control. You are not in control and never were. TMS prone types love control and predictability. Don't feed the TMS monster with 'panic'. Try and be still and focus on living in the now more.
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On the positive side, I started a mediation class yesterday, and was actually able to mostly forget about the pain for several moments here and there.
Use that. Awesome. Recall this when in doubt.
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hkp
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Posted - 07/15/2008 : 10:25:48
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Thanks much. I am working on my self-soothing and acceptance - difficult! Can't WAIT to be off of the drugs...
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David Russ
USA
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Posted - 07/15/2008 : 12:18:12
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| Another juicy question to ask yourself is "what do I gain by having these symptoms?" What part of your ego likes the pain? What other way can you satisfy this part of your ego? |
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Could I be holding on to one or two symptoms?
