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Fox
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 Posted - 11/08/2004 : 08:23:32
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| For the last several months, my left leg sciatica has presented very little of a problem, and when the pain arose, I could get rid of it with anti-TMS thinking. But it's come back into my life since Saturday afternoon with a bang! It's been really intense since then...My 11 year old boy was skateboarding in the driveway, and I was standing close to him - admiring his moves and bragging on him. Suddenly, he fell forward, and the loose skateboard shot back towards me and slammed into the front of my lower shin/ankle area. It hurt like heck and I now have a large bruise there (even though I iced it immediately after the incident). Unfortunately, that is the very area where my sciatica has been the most frequent and most severe over the last 20 years. The area that received the trauma has been throbbing and tingling non-stop for almost 48 hours. Suspiciously, I have also had pain in other parts of the leg - the calf, the toes, the outside of the ankle, and the side and front of the thigh. It doesn't seem that any pain physically associated with the injury should be be experienced in the calf or especially the thigh (maybe the toes? maybe the outside of the ankle?). And I know that there shouldn't be pain even in the direct area injured 2 days after the incident!! Holy Smokes, when I used to come home at night from karate class years ago, I would have bruises all up and down each forearm from blocking and up and down each shin from my kicks getting blocked (this was before we started using shin and forearm pads), and I would never feel ANY pain the next day, unless I pressed right on the bruise....I'm under stress in several ways at work and at home right now, and I think my brain has seized any opportunity to give me some persistent distracting pain again - right in the sites where the pain has been effective in the past...I need some support, fellow TMSers, to convince myself that what's happening to me right now is TMS B.S. and unrelated to my minor injury. |
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Posted - 11/08/2004 : 09:37:16
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Sounds like a pretty typical response for a person with TMS tendencies, Fox. An unexpected, painful blow to the area that was your most vulnerable - the shock alone would probably have been enough to start a bout of TMS.
The fact is - you did actually hurt your shin/ankle; you've got the bruise to prove it. Being of a TMS disposition - your 'gremlin' has seen a chance to pounce - turning what is most likely a minor, but painful injury, into something that all of us here can relate to.
You are on to it, though - that's the most important thing. If the flying skateboard had hit an area with less history, you may well have been able to regard it as nothing to worry about.
I slipped on wet grass last week - fell all my length - thoughts immediately jumped to my back. Had I landed on it? No. Had I twisted it? No. Was it really OK? Yes. Only when I had mentally gone through all that did I notice that my knee (a non-TMS area for me) was cut and bleeding.
After a year and a half of doing the TMS work and having great success, the TMS thinking is still lurking.
As well as being attacked by a skateboard you have stressful situations to deal with as well. You say that your brain has seized the opportunity to give you some distracting pain again - sounds about right to me.
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tennis tom
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Posted - 11/08/2004 : 10:27:26
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Fox, Glad to hear about your injury! That's sounds odd doesn't it? Around here we're so used to dealing with phantom TMS pain that when we hear of a REAL one it's like a breath of fresh air.
AnneG did a very good anaysis of your case. What I'm feeling is an upswelling of FEAR on your part. Your homeostasis has been interrupted. Your mind was getting comfortable with handling TMS and now something new has been thrown into the mix.
Greet this bruise as an excellent opportunity to witness the TMS gremlin squirming to re-invade your sub-conscious. By doing your TMS homework you have outsmarted the little s---. You are sensing how little logic there is to the unrelated symptoms. The gremlin is not so smart afterall. He's going to have to take a hike and invade one of your neighbors looking for excuses to stay in bed.
Observe what is happening. Use this incident as an eppiphany for more fully internalizing your TMS skills. Let the knowledge sink into your sub-conscious and displace the old ways of thinking that produced FEAR with each new physical sensation. Replace the fear emotion with COURAGE and CONFIDENCE that you control your life and not outside influences.
I had a TMS pain movement experience earlier this year that I posted about. The pain moved from my hip to my neck/shoulder and back in one week. This was TMS eppiphany for me. It proved how illogical pain can be. I had accumulated enough TMS knoledge by then to connect the dots and see it for what it was. Illogical by modern thinking standards-but not by the voo-doo standards of the vestigel remnant of our pre-historic brains.
Your injury will totaly heal in a week or two. Walk it off. Be thankful it happened. I've heard of many instances where back problems were "cured" by un-expected falls that forced the injured area to unlock after years. I have thought of having a deliberate "accident" to un-lock my hip but it doesn't seem to work that way. |
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Fox
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Posted - 11/08/2004 : 11:18:03
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| Thanks AnneG and Tennis Tom. I needed the support and the objective viewpoint. You were right, Tom, that this experience has stirred up fear because I thought that I had my TMS gremlin pretty well under control --chained to the wall--and I'm now I'm back to obsessing "Is this pain ever going to end?" and "Did I get some sort of permanent injury from the incident?" ... Since I posted the topic, I now have a little more evidence that this is really TMS B.S. because at lunch I noticed I was also getting some pain in the left buttocks area, and I remembered that yesterday I had some lower back pain on the left side (a real rarity for me nowadays). Well, regardless of what the gremlin is trying to convince me, I know that pain in the back and in the buttocks has nothing to do with a whack to the shin! |
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tennis tom
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Posted - 11/08/2004 : 11:48:34
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Thanks Fox. Glad it helped. I think we just have to ACCEPT that as we get older we are subceptible to sensing more PAIN. It just comes with the territory. Maybe Sarno would call it "gray hair of the aging soul". But we don't have to FEAR it because it is NORMAL. Everyone on the planet is on the same clock. We all get pushed around by gravity. What is under our control is how we FEEL about it and how we REACT to it. We can fear it or we can accept it. We can play it or let it play us.
We have an added difficulty with this in our present culture. It is youth oriented so aging gracefully is not acceptable by the media. I think it will soon have to be as my aging baby-boomers have to face it and can no longer deny it. Plastic surgery and Porches cannot put off the inevitable. We are all slowly dying. I think when we turn this corner from the exuberance of youth to facing our inevitable demise that the TMS years can set in.
We can deal with life head-on or continually let the Gremlin pinch and prod us, keeping us in a fear state, alaways off balance, fighting the inevitable. I don't want engraved on my tombstone, "THE TMS GREMLIN GOT 'EM, R.I.P."
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