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shawnsmith
Czech Republic
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 Posted - 02/07/2007 : 08:22:47
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I recently wrote in my journal that it would be helpful to develop a paradigm with which to organize my thoughts because randmom thinking does not seem to work for me. I decided to concentrate on three areas, which are not totally unrelated, knowing full well there are many areas I could also focus on but that focusing on a few may be more effective:
1) Wanting things to go my way and internally becoming angry when they do not. (TMS types seem to want to control their immediate surroundings which opens themselves up for the generation of a little of internal rage as no one can control their immediate surroundings 100%) This contributes to my unconscious rage. I try to focus on those times when I am angry or annoyed when things do not go my way, no matter how subtle the feeling, as it does not have to be a big thing. (see Sopher's Chpater in TDM who makes this point). If I insist on looking for "big" things as the source of my annoyance and internal rage, and dismiss the little things, I may be doing myself a disservice as all contribute, no matter what their size, to my resevior of rage.
2) Fearful of not being tken care of, insecurity or even feelings of danger to oneself. Yes, this is very much a part of who I am.
3) Pressures of everyday life, but especially those pressures I place on myself (ie to be competent, respected, to achieve) in reaction to external circumstances. ie school, mariage, moving to a new place ect...The list is seemingly endless on this point.
I had a bad right wrist pain yesterday and then withing hours it disappeared to re-surface on my left elbow. Dr. Sarno makes iot clear that this is common for symptoms to move around.
I am stressed over school right now (do I good job Shawn as you are older than other students) as well as just purchasing a home (going to be financially tight for awhile) for the first time and feeling the pressure my wife brings hom from her work (fear of not being taken care of if she gets sick, which is a shameful and selfish way to think).
There seems to be so much inward pressure and anger, yet I honestly cannot feel it, but I know it is there- the TMS pain reminds me of it every single second without let up.
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Edited by - shawnsmith on 02/07/2007 14:07:30 |
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Singer_Artist
USA
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Posted - 02/07/2007 : 23:06:46
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I hear you, Shawn..These types of pressures can cause the TMS to flare, big time! BTW, The movie "The Secret" is the topic on the Oprah show! You were the one who turned me onto that wonderful film here on this TMS board! I thank you for that..Just wanted to let you know that she is having some of the people who were in the movie on the show tomorrow..I, for one, plan on checking it out! Don't forget to give my site another peak..It's completely done now! I posted my web addy in my profile on here in case you forgot it..
God's blessings!
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Just journaling
