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robbokop
United Kingdom
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Posted - 09/07/2006 : 02:59:58
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Hello all,
Haven't posted for a while. I've been getting on really well beating symptoms of cold hands recently. Each time I've been getting the symptoms I've been able to reach the emotional feelings and work through them, which has been a real breakthrough for me after a long period of feeling numb and struggling a lot with symptoms. I found that if I went right into the feelings and felt the emotional pain, I would come out of the other side feeling slightly healed, more relaxed and clear headed. Everything was going so well! Last week, after a particularly tough day at work, in which I had to witness a nasty confrontation between my boss and a client, I went home with feelings of a migraine coming on, sickness etc. I used to suffer badly with headaches a lot, and the idea of having them again is scary to me, I struggled such a lot the first time round (albeit without knowledge of TMS). Since that day last week, I have been suffering with very distracting headaches, neck pain, weird facial burning etc. The cold hands symptoms have now totally gone (which is good!) but have been replaced with these new symptoms. I am trying to access the emotions but am finding it really hard again. Should I feel glad that the symptoms have moved, as it proves that I'm starting to beat TMS, because at the moment I just feel really frustrated with these new symptoms? I was really starting to access some pretty horrible emotions to do with my family etc and am finding it really hard to do this now the symptoms have moved and are so prominent. Would appreciate any comments. Best wishes to all. Rob |
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tennis tom
USA
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Posted - 09/07/2006 : 09:29:45
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Hi Robbokop,
Lucky fella', you've got the TMS symptom that started it all, MIGRAINES! This was the Good Doctor's first symptom that laid the path for his TMS theory.
As a young doctor, he suffered from them--that new doctor STRESS stuff. He found that if he switched his foucus from the physcial to the emotional he could stop the onset of the migraine in it's initial stage of the visual distortions.
He found that even if he could NOT discover what was bothering, just the mind shift was enough to STOP the onset of the migraine.
It's interesting that your episode began with witnesssing a conflict at work. I find that TMS'ers are especially adverse to any CONFLICTS. I have always been so myself. It may stem from my parents using it as their main form of COMMUNICATING.
It must have scared me as a young child. They were both Hungarian and it seems that Europeans are more vocal in their communications. Americans and Anglos seem more reserved, probably due to cultural reasons, Pilgrims, Puritans, the Reformation, etc.
As I age, I have witnessed a lot of conflicts and uncomfortable situations, many at work. I survived them all and now actually ENJOY watching OTHERS have disagreements. It used to be embarassing and I'd shy away but now I observe with some glee and say to myself, "I'm glad it's not me." Conflict IS a part of life, it's not going away so we might as well adjust to it and not let it freak us out so badly.
My feeling is as long as there are no bullets or knives flying in my direction, just sit back, chill and enjoy the fire-works. And on occasion join in and create some of your own. |
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miehnesor
USA
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Posted - 09/07/2006 : 12:31:58
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Rob- Chances are the confrontation you witnesses triggered some anger inside of you and now its threatening to come out. I would try and see how the situation mirrored something similar that happened in your past and see if you can't identify and feel the feelings that lie there.
Congradulation on your success with the hand symptoms. Great progress. Keep up the good work.
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Penny
USA
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Posted - 09/07/2006 : 13:15:31
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This is symptom imperative at work ... you've scared the coldness from your hands and now your amazing brain is trying to trick you by distracting you with a new symptom!!! Aha, but you've caught it. Clever YOU!!!!
I stopped my very first migraine a couple weeks ago. This was incredibly powerful experience. The previous migraine I had a couple months ago (before I knew about TMS) put me in the hospital with blood pressure so high the doctors thought I was going to have a stroke.
I stopped it by going to a safe room (away from my kids), and swearing my head off like a pirate. (I rarely use foul language b/c I am ever so polite, so this is my Dr. Jeckyl-Mrs. Hyde tactic.) I yelled obsenities at the part of my brain that was trying to distract me from the emotion I was denying. (That night my hubby had started a new job where he had to work overnight.) I was SO furious that my brain was throwing a migraine at me that the foul lingo flowed out of me. I didn't know it was possible for me to be so vulgar. After the swearing contraction peaked and ended I noticed the squiggles and vertigo from the migraine had stopped! I went and sat down and closed my eyes and asked myself a tough question, if I was upset by my husband's absence and accepted that I was. This sealed the deal ... I went full circle and migraine was gone. I was dumbfounded. I've had migraines on and off since I was a kid and never once proactively disabled one. I felt exhausted, and in the days afterwards, empowered by this experience.
Ironically, weeks later I read TDM, and Sarno actually has a paragraph that talks about migraine sufferers stopping their migraines in their tracks by having a "vulgar outburst".
If I can stop a migraine, there is no reason why you can't. Think outside the symptoms and reclaim your full brain. Do something completely atypical and large and believe whatever you choose has the power to stop it. Keep kicking the couch (or whatever feels right) til it stops!
Oh, and one more thing, the fact that the TMS is on the move is a good sign that you are getting better and making emotional progress. I know the pain is no picnic, but try to press on and commend your brain for trying in another place.
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Edited by - Penny on 09/07/2006 13:29:10 |
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Stryder
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Posted - 09/07/2006 : 22:24:59
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quote: Originally posted by Penny
...I stopped my very first migraine a couple weeks ago...
...Ironically, weeks later I read TDM, and Sarno actually has a paragraph that talks about migraine sufferers stopping their migraines in their tracks by having a "vulgar outburst"...
I'll have to give that one a try instead of having a 1/2 cup of coffee (placebo?). I only get 2 or 3 migraines a year since I quite caffeine 9 years ago.
Take care, -Stryder |
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robbokop
United Kingdom
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Posted - 09/08/2006 : 09:54:33
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Thanks for all the responses. I'm adopting my same approach of ignoring the symptoms and letting them come and go. Just sticking with the feelings and accepting symptoms, I'm sure this will be the best way forward. I figure this is just the next stage in healing, as I'm beginning to tackle some very difficult personal family issues and it's no surprise if it causes a headache or two (or three etc!). Some of the feelings are unbelievable, so painful, these have been stuffed away for years, and I think I'm gonna be in for a long ride.
Cheers everyone.
Rob |
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