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Steve
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 Posted - 08/27/2004 : 11:37:58
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Overcoming the fear of doing physical things with my right shoulder/arm has always been the biggest problem for me. Especially when I hear "noises" in my shoulder. I hear all this clicking and popping when I move my shoulder/arm in certain positions....noises that I do not hear in my "non-TMS" shoulder. The conventional Western medicine side of my brain asks how there can be no structural damage when I hear these noises? Sometimes I even feel the tendon in my shoulder catch which is particularly painful.
Does anyone else struggle with "hearing" things that cast doubt in their minds about whether their pain is caused by structural deficiencies or not? I know this is TMS, it has to be, but getting past this fear has been a bit of a pychological roadblock for me. |
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Louise
USA
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Posted - 08/27/2004 : 13:49:50
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Oh yeah, I hear noises, too! This is one of the new tricks TMS has been playing on me. Most of my TMS has been back/butt/leg pain, and I've been diagnosed as having a herniated disc at L4/L5. I had back surgery in 2002, which gave me a placebo cure of about 12 months. I've been doing pretty well with the TMS work - my back pain is pretty much down to a dull ache, but a couple of months ago, my lower back started to POP! Big scary sounding POP's, combined with a bit of discomfort, but no real pain. Naturally, this grabbed my attention. My brain raced to think - OH MY GOD!!!! I've really screwed up my back. There is now something structurally wrong with me, because this is not normal! Luckily, I regained my sanity after a little while, and gave it some objective thought. I realized that I had no pain from the popping - it was really more disconcerting than anything. I also had no reduction in motion, so what was I worrying about? My left knee (on which I've had surgery) has been popping for years, and I pay it no attention, so why am I giving this back popping so much thought? I realized that this was just another TMS manifestation, brought about by work and vacation stress. I decided to look at the popping as a harmless thing, and within a couple of days, the popping was down about 80%. It still pops once in a while, but it's no big deal.
Funny thing, though. Last night I went for a walk, which is something that I've been very cautiously working back into. I decided to push myself to walk an extra couple of blocks, and as I rounded the first extra block, my right (non-surgarized) knee started to pop with each step. I knew that this was TMS trying to influence my actions, so I pushed on, popping all the way home. This morning - no popping in the right knee.
It was just TMS trying to F*** with me. |
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Overcoming the fear
