I am still battling this awful TMS attack. After no pain for 4 months - this is crazy. When I look back, I have had all sorts of TMS equivalents going but nothing this bad. I also realize on Sunday that I had some sort of TMS tension headache - I was extremely nauseous and the pain was blinding - I have never had one of those before. I thought it was something I ate on Saturday. Now I realize it was TMS. Last night I was unable to stand up straight. I got my books out again and started reading them. I must admit that I didn't really do alot of the journalling at the beginning. I also was seeing a therapist but stopped that a month ago. I am going to start that again. The experience with my sister in laws on Monday created this massive attack. The pain is in a totally new part of my back and is extremely bad. Is this a good sign? I have read that the pain moving around shows that the TMS is fighting to stay. I would say that the pain is 20% less today but still one of the worst attacks ever. Dr. Sarno is away on vacation until Sept 13th, so I can't see him. Also I have to get on a plane on Thursday to spend the weekend with my dad - he hates dealing with problems and I really didn't want to be in pain. Sorry to moan on - but this is really challenging Suz
Hey Suz-Sorry to hear you are still hving pain. Sounds like you had a good old migrane. I got them on a regular basis and they are quite devastating. I remember the first time I had one I could not imagine what was happening to me. You just almost have to lie down until they quit. The last couple of months I have been able to stop them by thinking psychologically. The good news is you are 20% better. Keep thinking about that. You are moving in the right direction. Could you put off seeing your dad until next week? For me, knowing I had to travel with that much pain would bring me alot of stress. You sound like you have a handle on the cause, You just need to give yourself some time for your body to catch up with your brain.
Thanks for your kind words, Susie. I actually think that going to see my Dad might help beat this TMS - if I stay then I am giving in! Right at the beginning of doing Sarno's work 4 months ago - the first thing I did after reading the book was to go running (haven't run in 10 years or done any exercise in 5) and then I wore my highest heels to work!! I guess it was my way of laughing at my unconsious and saying &^$%&*% you to it. (I like to use very strong language in my head!.) I have purposely worn high heels today and am trying really hard to focus on the emotional -it certainly is challenging to ignore the pain. How long have you been doing this work for, Susie? Did the pain start in the back and then turn into migraines/
Suz-I posted a reply to you under the acne post. I had migranes way before the backpain. Also had ibs for a longtime off and on. You are probably right about going to your dads. After I wrote you a post, I had to question whether the acknowledgement of emotional triggers can cause us to limit our experiences. I refuse to limit my psysical movement but I must admit that I now try to avoid the things that will aggravate the s--t out of me. Does that give tms a control? It certainly sounds like it when I read this. There are certain things in my life that can always cause a stressful reaction in me, even with my knowledge of tms causing triggers. I always deal with the essential things but I might avoid the electives to avoid the stress. What do you think?
help - still terrible pain
Posted - 08/18/2004 : 08:00:17
