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FlyByNight
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 Posted - 02/22/2006 : 07:41:12
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yesterday morning I woke up in usual neck pain and stiffness and after this other depressing episode, I looked at my little doughter and I decided It was JUST enough.
I took a very important decision yesterday. I decided that for the first time in my life I would participate to a marathon in Montreal in exactly 8 months (While I love running for myself, I have always admire people having the guts to do that kind of competition, guts that I never had in the past). At first, this decision scared the **** out of me but the more I thought about it the more it made sense because it is an external goal that will drive me to get back to an active life after all.
So yesterday morning I started to run again (after 6 months of fear of having pain while running, you know the song). I did it also this morning.
Well, As you may expect, it is not a fun game as I feel severe pain and muscle tightness in my neck just after running as my body cool down. BUT NOW the difference is that I am now ignoring it, for real !
Despite the pain, I feel it is quite empowering to do that. It is like having control on something. It gives you the extra energy you need to fight back the pain.
The road will not be easy but right now I feel like rambo with a knife between my teeth !
Grrr..
Another step on TMS recovery I guess
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vikki
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Posted - 02/22/2006 : 09:57:53
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Hi FlyByNight,
Good for you :-) I totally support this approach -- it puts YOU back in control. It has made so much of a difference for me to realize that I need not be a victim of the pain.
And that's great that you're entering a race. I love running too, but I rarely enter races because I can't handle the pressure.
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FlyByNight
Canada
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Posted - 02/22/2006 : 11:10:10
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vikky
I fully understand what you do mean about being unable to take the pressure of a race. The interesting fact about a Marathon like the one I am going to participate is that you do it with hundreds of other people of all ages and with varying degree of fitness. I will do this race only for me. Just completing it will be a full win for me ... The reason behind the race decision is in fact setting an external goal to reach in order to avoid seeing running as a burden or self inflicting torture. I need to associate some positive , exiting thoughts to do it without anger of fear.
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