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Hillbilly
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 Posted - 01/18/2006 : 08:47:21
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| Hi all. I have been lurking here for a few weeks, just trying to absorb what others are doing to fight this gremlin, and I must say that I like how most of you support each other. I live in Kentucky, nowhere near a TMS doc. I have read HBP and MBP as well as Dr. Sopher's books. I must admit that I have read them and put them aside, thinking I could control this thing. I have anxiety issues that go along with my pain, and I never had a panic attack in my life until the pain got out of control in April of last year. I did the usual circuit, seeing GP, chiro, psychologist, SSRI ingestion, even had an MRI done on my brain to rule out MS, due to family history with sister. I had a halfway decent late summer and fall. Threw the Zoloft away in Sept. I was scared to lose my crutch, but did it and felt fine. Then I started to feel that "welling up feeling" again around Christmas, weird sense of balance at work, and knifing, burning pain above my right shoulder blade. It's always there, all I have to do is call it to mind. I can exercise, lift weights, push, pull, anything, no pain, no problems. I just can't sit or stand still for the life of me, especially in public. What a joke! I have TMS, and I will get better. I am in the process of rereading the books (did I mention two kids?), so it will be just that -- a process. Any suggestions are appreciated in advance with how to go about the mental work. I can work, but it's a struggle, and I am not crazy about what I do for a living. That is part of what is going on, I know. |
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jilly_girl
USA
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Posted - 01/18/2006 : 10:17:04
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Hi Hillbilly. I am a fellow panic attacker I couldnt sit still for the longest. I had agorophobia and couldnt do much of anything. I finally got to the point where i said "if i fall out in the floor in wal mart so be it." accepting myself as I was and not kicking myself for having the problem also helped. it took a long time but i got better. i did (and still do!) take Xanax sometimes for it.
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Hillbilly
USA
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Posted - 01/18/2006 : 10:32:24
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| Thanks, Jilly. I made a special note of the sections of the books on mood disorders, and how Dr. Sarno has classified the anxiety issue as an equivalent of TMS. I know that prior to the panic, the pain existed. Perhpas the panic was a stepped-up subconscious effort to gain my mind's attention? I could live with it and function, and I kept telling myself that it would resolve. I started to get depressed the more it became a distraction to me. I am learning to relax and have vowed to stay active. My job requires sitting at a computer all day, so that in itself is difficult. I am challenging the notion that there is anything wrong, with affirmations like I posted previously about doing anything I choose. The public part is a problem, though, that I need help dealing with. |
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