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| Milos |
Posted - 05/06/2005 : 10:57:02
A couple of days I am now using Dr.Schechter's The MindBody Workbook, which is, as some of TMS sufferers know, a combination of diary and questionnaire. Just after three days, beeing very open to the book and writing on it very carefully about some of the angers and stresses I had during my 77 years of life, I registered a interesting phenomena. I was writing about the events during the German attack on former Yugoslavia in 6 th April 1941. In that time, I was 13 years old; we were living in Belgrade and the first day we survived a heavy air bombing raid from the Germans Luftwaffe. A heavy bomb was falling 20 meters before the house and we were filled up. After that, during next 4 years of war, I saw numerous, very terrible views and scenes, unevitable for the total war as WW II was. In 1943, as a teenager, I become a Partisan warrior against German occupators in Slovenia. So all the wartime there were countless opportunities for stress, fear and anger, which had doubtless a tremendous effect on my unconscious mind (Up to now, I was by far convinced, that my mind has almost forgot this war events, which regarding the time are so far from now..!).
And now about the phenomena. Writing this on the computer, I felt my back pain gradually reduced, but I got a kind of nervousity, the systolic blood pressure raised (from 130 to over 150 mmHg – the diastolic was normal, about 70 mmHg) and I got a tension headache too. Obviously, all this was a sign that my back pain is really TMS. This phenomena vanished after an hour or so, no more headache and blood pressure was normal too. Of course, the back pain was there again (perhaps a very little bit weaker).
I am now sure, that I am on the right way and I have to deal more with events from my childhood and teenage, which obviously was very hard influenced with terrible events of the WW II. This influence on my unconscious mind is a new recognition for me.
It will be interesting for me if anybody, who is trying to discover contents of his unconscious mind, had similar reactions during recalling memories from heavy and unpleasent events from his early life years. Thank you for the answer !
Milos
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Posted - 05/06/2005 : 19:51:45
Milos
You are getting into the very heart of the matter quite quickly.In our scientific/physical world,it is very hard for Doctors to admit that emotional stimuli can actually cause pain.They all agree that it might worsen an already existing condition,but very few would acknowledge that the entire problem is the result of emotional stressors.
On Page 58 of Healing Back Pain,Dr. Sarno cites a study done in 1946 by a military doctor on returning soldiers.He reported that 96% of a returning group of Air force personnel had psychologically induced pain.Back THEN it was accepted by the New England Journal of Medicine,a very prestigious American medical journal.Dr Sarno goes on to say that if that report were made today,it would be thrown out as "unscientific"
I was recently working with a man who has just returned from Iraq.He was very friendly and conscientious,but kept missing days at work due to health problems.It seemed odd,because he is 30,young and healthy looking.
We became friends and one day he confided in me that he had killed a young boy in Iraq.Though he enlisted as a painter for the Air Force,they changed his job to driver when he arrived.He was driving a convoy across the desert and was under orders to stop for NO reason whatsoever.....people had been trying to stop the convoys to rob the supplies,and to get clean shots at the vehicles(and of course try to kill them)...If the convoys were stopped,soldiers in the desert would go without food and water.
None the less,as he was driving,an Iraqi man pushed his son out in front of my friends truck ,who ran him over.He assumes the boy died,though he doesn't know for sure.He broke down crying when he told me this story.
Although He had recently re-enlisted,he had a psychological breakdown and was discharged.Now,the Veterans Administration(the VA) who initially treated him for being "shell shocked",is treating him for a laundry list of other maladies.I can't even begin to imagine the horror and grief he has to suffer through.When his mind can no longer handle the rage/anger/grief/shame/rage he gets a new symptom...he's being treated for chronic respiratory ailments,pain,headaches,anxiety attacks and a shaking disorder not unlike parkinsons.
I can't imagine that being in a war could produce anything BUT different versions of TMS.
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It will be interesting for me if anybody, who is trying to discover contents of his unconscious mind, had similar reactions during recalling memories from heavy and unpleasent events from his early life years. Thank you for the answer !
In your earlier post you had mentioned the problems with the guys at work before your retirement.It seems you've now opened up to a lot more probable causes....it's amazing when we start to look for sources of rage how much stuff we start to have to review and relive.
When I began to recover from TMS,I had to go back to the Death of my Father,Watching a friend killed by a drunk driver when I was 14 and a lot of other stuff that I thought I had 'gotten over'.I had to get angry,hit things and cry....I had to write,read and ponder.
The miracle of healing through this type of therapy can not be overstated....No matter what you've been through,as soon as your conscious brain realizes that this is the process by which the pain has been caused,the pain will cease.
As far as your Blood pressure going up,remember: Your unconscious has been using the pain as a defense for 17 years.....all sorts of changes might occur as it begins to lose it's grip on your attention....the pain might move,or you could have stomach troubles,rashes...anything.Just be vigilant and know that it is only your unconscious minds 'last stand' to try and 'protect' you from your emotions.
When I was 5 years old I had a painful abcess in a tooth.I was eating a salad with caesar dressing and I suppose some of the vinegar hit the nerve....I was in agony for a day and a half until they pulled the tooth out.
To this day, If I sit and stare at a picture of salad dressing ,I will being to tear up,my face swells and I sweat profusely!! This happened while I was recovering from TMS and it was my first 'glimpse' into how something definitively psychological absolutely causes a physical response.
You sound like your getting along famously! Keep up the good work.
peace
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