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lara |
Posted - 05/30/2012 : 11:34:56 I will post here as much as i can my emotions ,i am sorry if i bore some of you,so yeaH this morning i have done something i haven't since the pain started 1 yr ago,i put my ipod on my favorite artist on and headphones so i went for a walk,as i was walking i started imaging myself running like the old days ,tears started to flow from my eyes and a lump in my throat that would not let me breathe, the music transported me to those years when I ran,i was imagining myself running more and more,so I walked very fast for one hour without pain, my question is:what happened to me while walking with the music i used to listen for running before the pain started? my subconscious forgot his actual work of giving me physical pain ? if so ,is that music having the same effect as well the hammock?but in the hammock i don't feel like crying and listening that music was a mix of emotions! by the way pain is starting now ,it's been 1 hr since i came back from the walk.
Lara |
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drh7900 |
Posted - 05/31/2012 : 14:17:11 quote: Originally posted by lara
Every bad emotion i had before going for a run was gone after 5 miles . When my pain started i was used to run 6 miles or 7 , 5 days a week(then the surgery )and i could never run again ,i find walking so boring .It was A LOT going on in my family when my pain started add to that my surgery
You might want to think about this a little more...reflect on it a bit more. Unless I've misinterpreted what you wrote here...running WAS a means of escape. If you had bad emotion and went for a run, you could have been figuratively (or literally) running away from your problems. It's possible that as stresses increased and negative emotions increased ("It was A LOT going on in my family when my pain started"), the running became LESS effective at discharging the bad emotion. If it's not a good enough distraction anymore, the brain seeks other diversion.
I'm not trying to say that IS the case...I'm just suggesting that you think about it and see what conclusions you come to. A common theme in a lot of the TMS literature I've read thus far is going back to when the pain started and look at the events that were surrounding the onset of pain...and what emotions played a role in those events. Additionally, as you started thinking about RUNNING, you began to cry...could be that emotions involved in the events surrounding your old running days were starting to surface.
As others have mentioned...now that you FEAR running (something that you LOVE and that you MISS), this is ALSO a distraction from the "dangerous" emotions within. PAIN and FEAR OF PAIN are the distractions brought on by TMS.
You can do this. Sí se puede!
-- Dustin |
Bugbear |
Posted - 05/31/2012 : 11:34:30 Lara, you will get there. |
lara |
Posted - 05/31/2012 : 10:43:33 quote: Originally posted by drh7900
Recommendatoin: If you're walking without pain and imagining the old days when you used to run...why not...run? Don't be afraid of the pain...and if the pain makes you stop temporarily, that's ok, just don't let it be a distraction anymore. Remember: Resume all physical activity without fear of pain. I know it's easier said than done, but it IS possible.
From an analytical standpoint, the desire to cry could be due to the fact that you MISS running and you LOVE running and you FEAR running because of the pain. There could also be emotions tied to running that are buried deep. Did you use to run to escape from anger or fear or sadness? Did you use to run to leave the stresses behind? When your pain first started was there something going on that your brain is somehow now associating with running? Did pain happen while running after a stressful event?
You're making progress...don't give up.
-- Dustin
Dustin, Yes i MISS,LOVE AND FEAR running! It was an escape of what? i don't know,i just remember running and feeling free,happy ,healthy,sexy,powerful,strong etc .Every bad emotion i had before going for a run was gone after 5 miles . When my pain started i was used to run 6 miles or 7 , 5 days a week(then the surgery )and i could never run again ,i find walking so boring .It was A LOT going on in my family when my pain started add to that my surgery ,i feel that every aspect of my life has been affected with the lack of exercise but the fear of pain stops me from running,not even say anything about weighlifting!which i loved too. I miss that woman i used to be,i tried to jogg a couple of months ago but the pain stopped me completely. Sometimes i had dreams about running,i can even smell the trees in my dreams,the air in my face i feel it! i haven't opened that drawer that has all my clothes for running and gym,i know if i do so i will be very sad ,i know i won't fit in any of them! But what i felt yesterday was new ,and i know that it might be a good sign
Lara |
drh7900 |
Posted - 05/31/2012 : 09:28:42 Recommendatoin: If you're walking without pain and imagining the old days when you used to run...why not...run? Don't be afraid of the pain...and if the pain makes you stop temporarily, that's ok, just don't let it be a distraction anymore. Remember: Resume all physical activity without fear of pain. I know it's easier said than done, but it IS possible.
From an analytical standpoint, the desire to cry could be due to the fact that you MISS running and you LOVE running and you FEAR running because of the pain. There could also be emotions tied to running that are buried deep. Did you use to run to escape from anger or fear or sadness? Did you use to run to leave the stresses behind? When your pain first started was there something going on that your brain is somehow now associating with running? Did pain happen while running after a stressful event?
You're making progress...don't give up.
-- Dustin |
Gislat |
Posted - 05/30/2012 : 13:53:45 I have similar symptoms. During pilates workouts and treadmill sessions, I feel great. Shortly after stopping I feel my pain issues again. Maybe the mind is distracted from the pain during exercise. If TMS is caused by reduced blood flow (Sarno theory) then exercise with increased cardiac output and blood flow would help eliminate the symptoms.
Glenn |
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