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| aran451 |
Posted - 02/16/2012 : 21:27:29
After 5 months of reading, writing, self talk, and believing, I am happy to say that I am 100% cured of my so called RSI. This is incredible and I am deeply grateful to Sarno and all of you for your input and advice.
That is the great news. The bad news is that about 6 weeks after beating the RSI, I hurt my back. I was exercising and noticed that my lower back was hurting. Suspecting that it was TMS, I continued to work through the pain but it got worse and eventually I felt something pop and then it really hurt! I was in a lot of pain for about 4 days, taking a lot of ibuprofen and doing a lot of self talk. The acute pain abated but I was left with a sciatica-like pain that goes down my left leg. At this point I really started digging in, re-reading MBP, journaling, self talking and visualizing. I have been doing this pretty steadily for about 3 weeks and the pain is still there with gradual but very slow improvement. I am frustrated by this because I truly felt that I had "figured out" TMS and should be able to banish new pain quickly. The longer it is taking the more that doubts start to sink in and I know how counter-productive doubt can be. I find that stretching relieves the pain temporarily and so I do this often even though I know I should not be focusing on the physical.
I am wondering if other TMSers have had similar experiences with new pain arising that lingers and does not go away with a simple, "down boy" command. It seems like Sarno is always talking about instant abatement of pain once people recognize that it is TMS. This has not been my experience. I am fighting the doubt so I need some support!!
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| aran451 |
Posted - 02/17/2012 : 13:05:59
Thank you Steve! Everything you say sounds right to me and I really appreciate the reassurance. You are so right about the "confusional dilemma". I have many moments where I suddenly believe that the pain is because a vertebra is pinching a nerve and this just reinforces the brain's strategy. I guess what is frustrating is that I feel like I uncovered so many underlying emotions and wrote about them in my first round of TMS. Are there one's that I have not uncovered or is it the same ones? Does it matter? Sarno says that it is not necessary to change your personality or to resolve the repressed emotions, only to recognize that they exist and understand the brain's TMS strategy.
Another thing that I suspect is that the knowledge that I have TMS and the difficulty in resolving it becomes its own stress. In other words, TMS is causing TMS, if that makes sense. At some level, it seems that my brain just wants any excuse to create a reason to keep me distracted.
Thanks, again Steve. I am going to have to check out your book.
Digging in the dirt to find the places we got hurt - Peter Gabriel |
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