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| Taoist Pilgrim |
Posted - 08/01/2011 : 02:55:12
Just after some advice really...
...over the last few years I haven't been a stranger to health anxiety/hypochondria and I'm sure that an awful lot of my physical 'symptoms' have been generated as a result of mental anxiety. I feel that my medical providers have now boxed me off as a somatizer.
I have got the health anxiety in order to a large extent but had a flare up of sorts last year when my father died. Really strangely my father (who lived away by the way)had been suffering from sciatica and had been backwards and forwards to his GP who advised him they could find nothing wrong...one Friday afternoon his wife took him to A&E as he was in so much pain, they admitted him and he was DX'ed with cancer that afternoon...he died on the Tuesday!
This was a stressful time for everybody but it did play havoc with my health anxiety riddled mind but I managed to accept that **** happens and the unexpected and unexplained exist and cracked on with life.
I have a new symptom...can you guess what it is? Can you guess where I'm going with this? I have had some hip pain and mild sciatica stuff on and off all during my health anxiety phase over 3 years or so but it never lingers and the 'other stuff' always seemed to take precedant anyways. About 6 months ago I started to feel some weirdness going on with my back passage and sort of started to worry about anal cancer I saw a proctologist who examined me and said it was all OK and that he thought my problem was largly mental and that I was fixated on that area...good news.
Over the couple of months I am now finding that the sciatica type pain which used to be pretty mild and short lived is becoming more intense and more chronic...it seems to be with my constantly. My GP's all seem to dismiss it as nothing (...where else did that happen, ho hum!)and all say it is something that everybody is likely to suffer from at some point in life and to learn to live with it. I have voiced my concerns that it could be an entrapement issue due to the weird anal feeling but this has been dismissed as I get told that people experience far worse symptoms if this is the case such as numbness and loss of anal tone and control.
So, this is what has rung the TMS alarm bells! In a way I have no other option that to address it as TMS but I know I need to take the leap of faith required for a TMS DX but this is even harder now due to my fathers situation (it was suggested to him his pain was psychological. What may or may not be telling is that my pain is only really on the cusp of being that painful...it is nagging and annoying but it has never stopped me sleeping. The pain is located in my lower back and deep in my buttock and then an ache travels down into my thigh....I never seem to have the shock type sensation some people complain of but rather the constant deep ache.
What has confused me somewhat is that my pain had diminshed considerably in the middle of last week and I decided to go a a forest hike after 2 miles I could feel the pain returning...I managed to finish the 6 mile walk but since then the pain has been constant and show no sign of going or improving...I dunno but to me this suggests a structural rather than a mental process at work??
Apologies for the long drawn out post but just wanted to set the scene a little. I'm not really a TMS expert so just really wanted opinions/feedback from members as to what they think. Like I mentioned, my medical providers seem unwilling to offer me anything more with this and have not suggested MRI's etc which could open up a totally unnecessarily can of worms anyway. To that end I suppose I have nothing to lose by treating this as TMS...I have pretty bad anxiety at the moment and to compound matters further my mother is also now dealing with a possible cancer DX so I have plenty of stresses and stuff going on that could cause all sorts of physical symptoms I suppose.
Thanks for reading and any input. |
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| alexis |
Posted - 08/15/2011 : 05:59:18
Hi Art,
I'm very glad to hear she's already in assisted living - that will make things so much smoother. The best planners downgrade their house to a small condo by their 60s and are in a community with continuing care by 70 or 75. But far too many hold on to their personal giant farm house long beyond practicality. It sounds like she was wise.
If it's not alzheimer's it would most likely be vascular dementia (next most common) unless you know something specific...autopsy is still really the only definitive answer. Vascular dementia is a bit more step-wise in pattern and can stall for longer (or shorter), though it otherwise looks about the same. Anethesia over 60 is a real nightmare, though it's getting better with new research.
Best of luck for both your mother and your own future. Maybe we'll all get lucky...some new drugs, including surprise oldies like marijuana, show real promise, at least for alzheimer's. And as they say, we don't have to cure senile dementia...just push it's onset back a few years further than you die of other causes.
Alexis |
| art |
Posted - 08/13/2011 : 09:53:41
Moved by your words and compassion Alexis. Very fortunately, she's already in an assisted living facility. The next step will be to get her into the part where she's watched more, taken to meals etc etc.
I don't think she has Alzheimer's, although in practical terms I'm not sure what difference it makes. I think it was the trauma of my father's death two years ago, plus a couple of surgeries soon afterward which required general anesthesia that pushed her into dementia.
The beginning was a rather slow slide. Now I see her losing more by the month, if not week.
As you point out, many imagine they'd commit suicide, But if I find myself in a decline tas slow as my mother's, I'm pretty sure I'd be able to do that. Maybe I'm kidding myself, but I've always been highly tuned into my own mental processes and I'm all but sure I'd recognize the first symptoms for what they are.. In fact, my wife and I, both in our early 60's, talk about stockpiling certain equipment to be sure we're good to go (literally in this case) when the time comes...
Assuming the person has the mental wherewithal, it strikes me as the moral thing to do. It seems self-evident that allowing oneself to become such a terrible drain on family/society when quality of life is next to nil, or actually nil, is not right. (Again, assuming the capacity to avoid that, which I'm sure many don't have....) |
| alexis |
Posted - 08/11/2011 : 20:47:37
It's hard to tell which parts are better or worse. Early when there's indecision, denial and uncertainty is bad. You don't want to admit it's happening. In some ways its better once decisions are made and you know what has to be done. The problem is though that it keeps changing. At first you need to check on the person. Then you need maybe a cleaning service. Then intense and costly day time care (monetary cost, or family members giving up jobs and lives). Then ultimately full time...now a decision on who? And putting someone in a nursing home who doesn't want to go? I've seen a co-worker whose mother was flooding her toilet, unclean, eating raw spoiled food and getting lost. They had to bring lawyers in to get her into a nursing home. It took over a year during which time no one knew what would happen. There were fires in the apartment, floods into the floor below.
And if you can't aford the $100,000 a year or don't want to leave someone in a nursing home (it can save your sanity, but rarely means daily baths or regular cleaning or solid human interaction) then you are talking about doing it yourself. Well, maybe not yourself as the vast majority of cases fall to a female relative who, often as not, has their own job and kids and ends up living on the edge of sanity. And the strain on a marriage when a parent is taken in is immense. But what do you do when your parent cries not to go and your spouse threatens divorce if your lives are turned upside down by having a parent in the house who, for instance, regularly mistakes the living room chair for the toilet. I've seen this scenario too.
But even under more ideal conditions (which I've been fortunate enough to see too) there are so many other levels no one talks about. Alzheimer's, for instance, isn't a "memory problem" as people like to think, or is humorously portrayed in the media. It's a fatal degenerative illness from which people will ultimately die, usually with many symptoms worse than memory loss. Before that, they'll not only forget who their loved ones are, but potentially have radical personality changes, and almost certainly lose all control of bodily functions.
I don't want to scare anyone unnecessarily. I actually believe in letting the young live with some degree of innocence on this, but preparation for the reality has to happen once it’s imminent. The reality is that basic self-care and sanitation will ultimately be forgotten - for a period often lasting years. Not only will people forget where the bathroom is and how to take care of things on their own, but will ultimately lose control of bodily functions for a long period of time. Communication in the last period is usually monosyllabic at best, screams at worst. Then often mostly vegetative.
People who think it's not that bad I find were rarely primary care givers – rarely participating care givers at all. When not relegated to a nursing home (which will hide a lot of this from you) a relative will end up giving up their life to take care of basic needs for years (toileting, changing sheets, cleaning things you never imagined, living daily with a reminder of what’s been lost).
I've had a friend who grew up in a home where they had to lock doors at night because the grandmother, once loved by all, would walk the halls at night with a knife.
And other symptoms are awful to watch. The end stages can involve horrific and constant muscle spasms and cries of pain (after all other language is lost). Again, if someone is in a nursing home it's easier to miss, or forget, just how bad this is. Or if they were already ill from another condition you don't see the distinction, or this period lasts a shorter time.
This is what the media won't tell you in their little news stories because no one would watch the stories and no advertising would be sold. This is what your relatives won't tell you because they want to protect you ... or possibly to avoid scaring you off as a potential care giver. How many parents say to their kids "Oh, by the way, in your mid forties or fifties you may find yourself taking years off work to clean and feed me. If you don't and you want good care for me, expect to spend $100,000 a year."
I know you say you'll shoot yourself when it happens to you, but you almost certainly won't. You won't realize it's happening, and by the time it's diagnosed you won't remember the diagnosis for long. If you have kids they'll be making the decisions and will need both your legal intentions well written out, and all the money you’ve saved for nursing care legally designated. If you don't have kids, you want to have things arranged very, very carefully so that you actually will have the care you need.
As I said Art I’m really sorry – and I’m sorry to be so depressing. But I’ve lived with this for years and seen multiple family members and friends dealing with it. I’m well beyond forgetting or pretending.
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| art |
Posted - 08/11/2011 : 19:54:58
Thanks sincerely Alexis. It's nice to have the understanding. Lonely stuff, especially with the stubborn family dynamics. Some believe it or not, want to give her back the keys to the car. It's very hard to deal with... |
| alexis |
Posted - 08/11/2011 : 05:56:28
Art, I'm so sorry to hear you're dealing with your mother's dementia now. I found it gets a very little bit better after the denial about the dementia is over for everyone. Then though there's also denial about just how awful it is that can be as bad. I'm not saying it's always bad, denial can work for you too (we humans do it daily or wouldn't survive)...that's why we have the capability...depends who you are and what you can handle best. Good luck. |
| Back2-It |
Posted - 08/11/2011 : 05:00:42
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Now, my mother, who is pushing 70, is showing signs of forgetfulness, unfounded stress and anxiety, and a change, really, in behaviour. Everyone is seeing this as a demise into dementia, like her sister. I think she's just getting old (much as this makes me want to scream into my TMS-ness!)
I don't know what my point was. My mum doesn't really like her sister, but read a book about it, went to a course, (about dementia) and tried to help in some way. Now everyone thinks she's got it. It makes me feel sick. Don't people get OLD anymore, without it being ALZHEIMER'S?!
It seems to me, that Alzheimer's et al is the new... TMS. The one that gets you. I guess few will agree, as it's like saying cancer is TMS. I just don't know.
Not sure about dementia being the new TMS. I've had experience in dealing with this very closely. This was 20 years ago, though. It was a sudden onset.
Lately, there is some question in SOME dementia cases about the lack of Vitamin D3 or lack there of, and also the effects of the typical, sugar laden diet from ALL sources contributing.
My sister's mother in law was suddenly slipping mentally. They were ready to declare her demented (not clinically, but that was the next step), but I finally asked what meds she was on. She was on an SSRI and Xanax, plus a few other assorted things. This because she had just lost her husband of 50 plus years and was depressed and anxious. She was living alone and taking the meds in double doses.
The real bottom line: she was lonely, lost and confused, and was being allowed to just bounce off the bumpers like in an old pin ball machine. Correction in the meds and taking them and increased company has brought her out of her "dementia".
Not the case for all and maybe for just a few, but as a TMS doc just said to me about a med I was taking -- that there are many unknown side effects to common meds.
"Bridges Freeze Before Roads" |
| Wavy Soul |
Posted - 08/11/2011 : 00:58:43
Thanks for your story Golden Girl. Very interesting about your mom and her twin.
Re Alzheimers and dementia: In fact, I read an extraordinary book (which I can't remember the title or author of, but it's somewhere in my home probably) which presents the hypothesis that Alz is caused, or HIGHLY correlated, with childhood issues that are traumatic and unresolved. I was absolutely riveted by this book, which I read before my mum came down with it about 3-4 years ago.
In the book the author (a scientist) took multiple cases and showed the pattern. Reagan was one of them. The basic idea was that an unfelt emotional backlog catches up with people and this is one of the ways. Well... erm... sounds like...
The ultimate distraction perhaps - literal distraction?
I can say this, because I just had cancer and I'm perfectly willing to say it was TMS (although YOU can't say it!)
Just saying, is all...
Love is the answer, whatever the question |
| balto |
Posted - 08/10/2011 : 21:16:38
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Originally posted by art
My elderly mother has senile dementia and knows less with each passing week it seems. It's frightening, sad, and stressful in the extreme. To make matters worse, as alexis notes, family members are in denial. It's a constant battle on many fronts...
If it happens to me, I swear I'll take the gas pipe before it's too late.
My dad told me my grandmom had senile dementia too. He said he wish he would get it because he saw my grandmom went away so peaceful. She has not a care left in this earthly world. She passed away before I was born so I never know. |
| art |
Posted - 08/10/2011 : 20:11:09
My elderly mother has senile dementia and knows less with each passing week it seems. It's frightening, sad, and stressful in the extreme. To make matters worse, as alexis notes, family members are in denial. It's a constant battle on many fronts...
If it happens to me, I swear I'll take the gas pipe before it's too late. |
| alexis |
Posted - 08/10/2011 : 06:16:02
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Originally posted by golden_girl
It makes me feel sick. Don't people get OLD anymore, without it being ALZHEIMER'S?!
It seems to me, that Alzheimer's et al is the new... TMS. The one that gets you. I guess few will agree, as it's like saying cancer is TMS. I just don't know.
I will be the first to disagree. Alzheimer's and other senile dementias are, unfortunately, very very real and I've spent years of my life living with cases and researching everything I can. These are very typical cases in people who were never sick or TMS-y, and the reality is much sadder and more stressful and more real than anyone who hasn't lived with it yet will want to accept. Denial is the norm. I guarantee you that the first instinct of most who read what I'm writing is to think "she's exagerrating; the reality isn't that bad". The reality is that bad. (note there are a few other things like B vitamin deficiency that are reversable, but in the long run, without new medical advances, most people will get one form or another of dementia if they live long enough)
We're seeing it "increase" now because people live longer, have more anesthesia and chemotherapy and diabetes and obesity (all major risk factors) and we know how diagnose better, and realize that the early forgetfulness symptoms really often (usually) are early dementia symtoms (despite the main stream media's fuzzy interpretation). The media plays feel good story after feed good story about what "you can do to ward of Alzheimer's!" Well, yeah...avoid head injury, don't smoke, lose weight. Sorry, if you've really read the stats, you'll know that for now that's about it.
Head injury and genetics...everything else is a drop in the bucket unless you really cherry-pick your studies. You'll find one study out there to support almost anything, but the large reviews indicate reading crossword puzzles and most dietary changes and all those other little ideas as mostly just placebos. Take them up if you want, but I'd far, far more strongly advise enjoying life to the fullest you can fugally do and saving for retirement. Raise your kids so they aren't overweight, because once they are odds are they won't lose it. Encourage sports with low head injury.
Then put your money somewhere with safe growth prospects and try to sit back and forget about it, because while I believe in learning perspective that finds politics amusing and revels in human foibles, I have never, ever found the perspective to find anything good in dementia. It just plain sucks.
Living in denial about the horrors of dementia was one of my key TMS triggers. If you see it, curse it, hate it, fight it if you think you can, but don't hide your head in the sand and pretend everything's OK. It's not, and if you hit this nightmare with a loved one it'll be the worst thing you've ever faced. Get the support you need and move forward head on. |
| golden_girl |
Posted - 08/09/2011 : 19:37:46
Wavy, that's a very interesting story. In a way, I think we have less of the 'doctor shopping' thing BECAUSE of the free healthcare (UNLESS YOU'RE GOING TO DIE YOU CAN'T SEE ANYONE FOR 6 MONTHS SO HOLD OFF! Sorry, black humour...)
I have no one else really to tell this to, so I hope you don't mind me saying this here...
My mother has a twin (non identical) sister and was adopted with this sister during the war. They had, and I (and they, as much as they've said!) really believe this, a much better life (financially and otherwise) than they would have done if they hadn't been adopted.
My mother's twin sister has been ill, it seems, most days of her life. When I was growing up, she had tinnitus, panic attacks, pain syndromes, all sorts of malaise - and now she has dementia, to the point she is, well, gone.
My mother has been ill about twice in her life. She has had very short recurrences of back pain (I tried to point out 'TMS' to her a few years ago and she said 'Well, the last time it came on at Christmas... but I don't think that meant anything' haha), and a fibroid/hysterectomy. Oh, age onset macular degeneration. Other than that, top of the world.
Now, my mother, who is pushing 70, is showing signs of forgetfulness, unfounded stress and anxiety, and a change, really, in behaviour. Everyone is seeing this as a demise into dementia, like her sister. I think she's just getting old (much as this makes me want to scream into my TMS-ness!)
I don't know what my point was. My mum doesn't really like her sister, but read a book about it, went to a course, (about dementia) and tried to help in some way. Now everyone thinks she's got it. It makes me feel sick. Don't people get OLD anymore, without it being ALZHEIMER'S?!
It seems to me, that Alzheimer's et al is the new... TMS. The one that gets you. I guess few will agree, as it's like saying cancer is TMS. I just don't know.
"F.E.A.R.
Forgive Everyone And Remember
For Everything A Reason"
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| Wavy Soul |
Posted - 08/09/2011 : 00:07:14
My sister who died of cancer last year (in the UK!) seemed to me to have manifested it. She kept going to docs and demanding that they give her more and more tests. They would find her to be clear, and then she would go online and find some test they hadn't given her. Because it was free health-care, she was able to distract herself for ages doing this. She was very angry about everything (especially my existence).
I watched her go for more and more tests that she had demanded, until finally they found a slight greyness on an x-ray. She insisted it be biopsied and, HAZA! she had the extremely rare, one-in-a-million form of cancer (adrenal cancer) that killed her.
The weird thing was that I came home from her very stressful funeral, including very stressful final interactions with her, and found that I had cancer (a very common and not serious kind) which I had surgery for. I would never have found out, because I don't want all those tests, but was bleeding so heavily my doc insisted.
Just thought this story mildly relevant to the discussion. Love to all. Chill, brothers!
Love is the answer, whatever the question |
| art |
Posted - 08/06/2011 : 11:00:17
"You said it best yourself: "I suppose I have nothing to lose by treating this as TMS..."
This is a very useful point. In many cases, one can perform what amounts to an experiment with little or no downside.
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| Dave |
Posted - 08/03/2011 : 14:06:22
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Originally posted by Taoist Pilgrim
What has confused me somewhat is that my pain had diminshed considerably in the middle of last week and I decided to go a a forest hike after 2 miles I could feel the pain returning...I managed to finish the 6 mile walk but since then the pain has been constant and show no sign of going or improving...I dunno but to me this suggests a structural rather than a mental process at work??
This comment tells me you either do not fully understand or accept the TMS diagnosis. I suggest you re-read the part of Dr. Sarno's book that discusses conditioning as it is a key part of TMS.
You seem to be on the right track, and on some level you want to treat your symptoms as TMS, but something is holding you back. I suggest you focus on the psychological realm and accept the word of medical doctors that there is nothing seriously wrong with you.
You said it best yourself: "I suppose I have nothing to lose by treating this as TMS..." |
| Taoist Pilgrim |
Posted - 08/03/2011 : 00:52:47
Thanks again.
The reason I mentioned the cancer with my father was that I found it rather ironic that I symptom shifted onto the very ailment that my father presented with...I'm wondering if this adds some fuel to the idea of my issue being TMS/somatic rather than being a structural issue.
Yes, I suppose on some deep dark level there is always the fear that I have the very cancer that claimed my father and yes, a few years ago I would have been after 101 opinions from GP's far and wide but the facts are I have been diagnosed with sciatica, a symptom that untold people experience, and I have been told there are no red flags to warrant any worry of cancer. In the past this would not have been enough but I'm at the stage when I'm happy to accept that. Sure, if further down the line the sciatica hasn't improved or got worse then my GP has agreed that further investigations would then be reasonable...I agree with this. The leap from sciaitica to cancer is a huge one to make and yep the cards fell poorly for my dad but that happens and there is only so much you can do to control such a thing. I'm not going down the route of doctor shopping as it just leads me into a dead end avenue of further anxiety and frustration.
Whilst I'm not fearing the 'could be' of the sciatica as much as I would have done in the past my concern at the moment is really understanding if I'm dealing with a structural or TMS related issue...as I mentioned earlier I suppose it is a tad silly to expect this question to be magically answered on a forum as the answer ultimatly lies in taking that leap of faith and putting in the hard yards.
As has been briefly alluded to, I think that health anxiety and TMS/somatisation are quite closely entwined. Both really are the by products of a self absorbed and unhealthly preoccupation and I feel in many ways are the realisation of what happens when you just don't really have enough in life to engage with.
Anyway, thanks for the replies. To art and TT, sorry if I've stirred up a hornets nest that was not my intention. I can see and understand both points of view but art is quite right that health anxiety unfortunatly does not allow 'reasonable' behaviour in regards to me trying to control my own health and what would be right and normal for somebody else would contribute to further anxiety for me.
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| tennis tom |
Posted - 08/02/2011 : 17:05:57
Art, I have no idea how many doctors he's seen, he didn't state. I have no idea what they were testing him for, he didn't state. Since it seems you feel it's so important for you to be right, let me say you are right then, objectively or subjectively, which ever you prefer. I've learned not to argue with people who buy ink by the litre.
DR. SARNO'S 12 DAILY REMINDERS:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0dKBFwGR0g
TAKE THE HOLMES-RAHE STRESS TEST
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holmes_and_Rahe_stress_scale
Some of my favorite excerpts from _THE DIVIDED MIND_ :
http://www.tmshelp.com/forum/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=2605
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"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society." Jiddu Krishnamurti
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| art |
Posted - 08/02/2011 : 12:55:20
Look at this objectively Tom. Given OP's history of hypochondria and TMS (his doctors have caught on too evidently), what would you say is far more likely? That he co-opted his fathers sciatica in the way we TMS'ers love to glom onto things we fear, or that suddenly, years earlier than his father, he's contracted the same cancer.
How many doctors would you recommend he see? 2. 3. 5? At what point would you suppose a hypochondriac will pronounce himself satisfied? He's seen a physician who's checked him out presumably for the same cancer his father had and has been declared "fine."
The very last thing I'd be suggesting to a TMS hypo is that he continue to seek out more doctors. Really pretty antithetical to the usual way of looking at things around here.
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| tennis tom |
Posted - 08/02/2011 : 09:01:47
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Originally posted by Taoist Pilgrim
...Really strangely my father...had been suffering from sciatica and had been backwards and forwards to his GP who advised him they could find nothing wrong...one Friday afternoon his wife took him to A&E as he was in so much pain, they admitted him and he was DX'ed with cancer that afternoon...he died on the Tuesday!
...My GP's all seem to dismiss it as nothing (...where else did that happen, ho hum!)and all say it is something that everybody is likely to suffer from at some point in life and to learn to live with it.
I am the opposite of a hypochondriac, I procrastinate seeing docs unless I need to be wheeled in on a gurney. But, if I were in the OP's shoes, I would exhaust all dx's regarding cancer until I was thoroughly convinced they had not missed cancer as they tragically did his father's case.
The OP lives in the UK and I don't trust a socialized medical system to care for me on anywhere near as high a level as my own doctor does. That system blew it fatally in his father's case.
I don't know what tests the OP has had, maybe he has exhausted all of them. The fear of dying from an misdiagnosed cancer, is nothing to be laughed at. In the US, you can get an MRI on the spot, in places like the UK you can die by the time your number comes up for one. That's why people in Canada, who are seriously ill and can afford it, come to the US for quality medical care.
From a few paragraphs on this Forum, it is impossible to ascertain a poster's complete mindbody picture. Therefore, in a situation like this, that could have grave consequences, I would er on the side of caution. Ultimately, we are responsible for sorting out our own health, I've played too much tennis with doctors to trust all their calls.
DR. SARNO'S 12 DAILY REMINDERS:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0dKBFwGR0g
TAKE THE HOLMES-RAHE STRESS TEST
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holmes_and_Rahe_stress_scale
Some of my favorite excerpts from _THE DIVIDED MIND_ :
http://www.tmshelp.com/forum/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=2605
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"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society." Jiddu Krishnamurti
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| art |
Posted - 08/01/2011 : 13:50:56
T.P.
I'm not sure it's all that useful to try ascribing degrees of hypochondria. You either have it or you don't (God knows I do), and if you have it it's not a great way to live.
It sounds to me like you're establishing a difficult and ultimately self-perpetuating dynamic for yourself: anxiety/fear of this that or the other health related issue leading to anxiety and fear that these very feelings will harm you. That's a nasty vicious circle.
Bear in mind you can't reassure your way out of this by google, or seeing doctors, or asking questions on the forum. There are always doubts and your mind will always move in that direction...
My advice: assume TMS pretty much in every case. Find a way to shut your mind off when feeling fear. You can't feel fear if you don't allow your body the physical concomitants. Breathe, or meditate, or practice different forms of mindfulness. You can get better, but it will take application and courage. |
| balto |
Posted - 08/01/2011 : 12:40:16
This video show a cripple being cure instantly.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTs-3MMSrr4&NR=1
it's all in his head. I'm glad he is cured. |
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