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| PTosh |
Posted - 12/13/2010 : 09:38:02
Hi, I already had a TMS situation(manifested by repetitive strain injury), but with the mindbody prescription and Dr. schecter's workbook I disabled that distraction. But now my unconscious is clearly using other distractions. The distractions are quite nasty (as the RSI one was), but this time is psychological too. The symptoms I've been having are stomach pain, chest pain (which are better now because I recognize they are distractions) and the psychological problem is that I get very anxious when I'm thinking of anything. The physical pain usually comes when I'm thinking or making mental effort too.
So it looks like instead of being programmed to feel pain on the arms when using the computer (as before), now I'm programmed to feel physical pain on stomach and chest, and to get anxious when I'm making mental efforts. It's really strange I know, and this happened to me like 2 years ago too.
Anyway, I wanted to ask if even recognizing the unconscious can make distractions so the repressed and supressed feelings don't come to the conscious mind, and after being sucessful recognizing and taking a distraction out (TMS) like I did, does the repressed and supressed rage still need a distraction? And does that mean that unless I work on my repressed emotions, I'll keep having distractiosn my entire life? |
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| PTosh |
Posted - 12/16/2010 : 08:31:29
Thanks for the answers ;) Actually my parents will have to pay for it, because I'm still a student, and I don't think they'll agree...
Thank you for the kind words, I know I'm not weak, I just don't want my family to look to me like I am weak person who needs help from a "professional". Then my mother will tell everyone she knows about it and everyone will think I'm a screwed up person. I don't need their support, I would be cool if they just didn't care about it and didn't tell everyone they know about it. The truth is that most people are ignorant about this and consider that recurring to a psychotherapist is for weaks, and ironically some of those people need psychotherapy badly.
You're right back2-it, you never really know what they'll think, but I'm really sure this is what they'll think because I've been on psychotherapy before, some years ago. I'm not sure, but I think it was behavorial psychotherapy or maybe a mixture of analytical and behavorial. I dropped it because it wasn't helping anymore on the problem I had in that time... Anyway, my father tried to convince me to stop going (probably so he wouldn't pay anything more, and of course, I bet he thinks something like "therapy is for sissies"), but my mother convinced me to keep going. What annoys me about my mother is that she can't keep anything to herself, she had to tell everyone I was going to psychotherapy...
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it doesn't have to be a TMS therapist, actually. A good therapist who works with emotions can help enormously, because by addressing those issues in therapy, they don't need to use your body to express or distract.
Ok, that's what I thought. I have some questions about this and I was hoping someone could answer them so I'll open another topic. |
| Back2-It |
Posted - 12/15/2010 : 20:32:25
PTosh,
You are far from weak. You are showing supreme strength and wisdom beyond your years in recognizing your problems and then trying to work on them. This is not weakness; this is strength. Stay the path. It's difficult to see now, but you will be walking in the sunshine free from all this. I only wished when I was your age that I understood what my strange and frightening symptoms were. You are working on your long term situation, and it will take some patience.
Are you sure you know what your parents will say? I always thought that I knew what mine would say or think, and usually I was wrong. My father, God rest his soul, understood that I was having an anxiety and panic attack, along with physical symptoms, way back when, and he took time to take me out to the country and take a walk. This was when he had terminal lung cancer. You don't really know.
Keep working on your problem and your anxieties. I don't know about rage and surpressed rage. I think it is part of the human condition. Nobody escapes it. Sarno says recognize it; you don't necessarily have to express it.
I have taken the advice of some very intelligent posters on here, who have dealt with their anxiety and TMS (the same, I guess) and have accepted their pain and have floated into it and did their best to go about their daily business, hard as it is. They claim that and changing and addressing current stressors led them to the cure.
You are stronger than you think. I applaud you for your strength. Keep working at it. |
| Wavy Soul |
Posted - 12/15/2010 : 19:29:55
Who cares if your parents agree or think you're weak? Unless they will be paying for the therapy 
you're not weak
it doesn't have to be a TMS therapist, actually. A good therapist who works with emotions can help enormously, because by addressing those issues in therapy, they don't need to use your body to express or distract.
all the best
Love is the answer, whatever the question |
| PTosh |
Posted - 12/15/2010 : 16:16:15
Thanks for your answer 
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Then I ask, what is this rage really about?
When I ask myself this question, and I've asked it before, the only I answer I can give is that this rage is about some deep troubles I had in my adolescence. I know that made me repress a lot of emotions, and since that time I haven't been free of manifestations of these emotions. I know what caused this rage and I recognize I got this repressed rage, but that's not enough. I guess I need psychotherapy, but there are no TMS psychotherapists where I live, and I don't know if my parents will agree on this, which is really bad. And I also know how my family will think of this, they'll think I'm having some kind of depression and that I'm weak...
Well, I'm sorry for the long text, but this for me really is a trap. I don't want to act like I'm a victim, but I just don't know what to do :| |
| Wavy Soul |
Posted - 12/14/2010 : 09:55:00
Ultimately in my experience this whole dance can become a bit of a loop.
I ask myself: what am I distracting myself FROM, with all this symptom imperative where I go from anxiety to stomach ache to depression to back pain, and on and on?
Okay, I'm distracting myself from RAGE. I have no problem feeling rage. I can just sit here and ROAR!!! (Have you tried this? Just get a jump on it. Don't wait for it to emerge from some mysterious chamber of your so-called "inner" being. Just say, Well, I know and suspect that I am angry, so I will roar.)
Then I ask, what is this rage really about? And for me, the answer brings me to a spiritual question. Who am I? What am I doing here? Why is one part of me (my instinctual self or inner child or whatever one calls it) so ANGRY - or afraid, or sad - about being in a human condition with all these stresses and strains?
Do I not want to be here in the first place? I don't believe that. I don't think someone else put me here. So I came here because I wanted to experience something. Am I resisting that experience now.
I find when I inquire within myself that I am resisting the very fact of my aliveness. And it takes a not-very-big effort of will to notice that, take a breath, and say, okay, I accept my aliveness. And then just get on with it.
Hope this makes some sense. Another way of saying what I'm trying to say is that we make a huge story about our lives and our symptoms and TMS and the WHOLE THING is distraction from the unbearable sensation of raw, naked presence or aliveness. And the real work is learning to be - or agreeing to be - present, here, now, with just THIS.
Hope this is helpful. I'm certainly not intending to imply that I understand anything you don't. I AM you - I go through all those same kinds of questions, and we all do. This morning I am settling back into the basics. xx
Love is the answer, whatever the question |
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