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Baseball65 |
Posted - 05/20/2010 : 19:19:47 Hey everybody... howzzzit?
I forgot all about TMS cause I haven't had a sniff in quite awhile. Someone messaged me and I thought I'd check in...
For starters... It's ALL TMS. Every freakin' bit of it.
I am now 12 years past being diagnosed as a perma-cripple and things couldn't be better. Work a lot... play more... Lifting weights,skateboarding, falling, not caring...it's all good.
Hey! I went to a baseball tryout last week and I was the only person over 30 (I'm 44) and I got picked! Can't quite see the ball as well, but I'm better at guessing when the curveball is coming.
Still a manual laborer. Still on my knees a lot. Haven't had a twinge for quite awhile.
My last minor relapse (knee) went away after the wife gave me my walking papers...pretty good metaphor , huh? It's all really a metaphor.
Been alone for two years now. I get lonely for certain, but zero TMS. It wasn't until I started typing this post that I realized how much of the rage had to do with living in a situation that absolutely screamed against every fiber of my being.
I get scared sometimes. I just let it pass through... I have no safety net, no support sytem...but everything that supports us, binds us as well...and that can piss a person off(even if it's all repressed and unconscious)
12 years free...another thanks to Sarno.
out
Marc Richards a.k.a. Baseball65 a.k.a. piggy |
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pandamonium |
Posted - 05/23/2010 : 14:52:07 Nice to see you on here again baseball, well done on getting picked for the baseball team!
I am learning to ice skate. It was scary at first but I am loving the feeling of freedom and movement it gives me and a couple of years ago I could hardly walk, what a difference! When I started I thought I might get to level 4 of the 10 levels but now I'm already there and am now hoping to go all the way to 10, amazing stuff.
Panda
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Baseball65 |
Posted - 05/22/2010 : 20:14:58 @ SB57... I always thought 'healing back pain' was the most straight forward. Like all simple idea's, it seems like the mindbody stuff has gotten a bit spread out. Everybody is right. All of the therapies work, but this whole 'journaling' thing sort of bugs me... what? How did my day go? How do I do this thing right? We're all sort of perfectionists by nature, so we're going to be worried about form over content (which is sort of our problem in the first place.)
RE-educate yourself about yourself RE-fute the diagnosis and the bad advice (like being careful) RE-Turn to all normal activity, the more vigorous the better
It's actully the three R's, but it could also be called the three RE's...
I wish I could say it was as simple as indulging myself, but I am still over concerned about my children, compulsive about being a good dad. attending my children's events, cleaning up messes I didn't make... I just make sure and live.
I don't think that on my deathbed I'll be worried that I didn't spend enough time painting houses, but I might regret not playing enough baseball...challenging myself to confront failures from early in life and having a hell of a good time doing it.
Still can't hit a curve ball from a lefty....YET
-marc |
SB57 |
Posted - 05/21/2010 : 12:35:30 quote: Originally posted by guej
Hi Baseball!
It doesn't totally surprise me about your wife. You can see traces of it throughout all your old posts... I love my husband and my kids, but I have a theory that when I'm 80 and living on my own again, I'll be pain free...I think there is a constant conflict going on inside us between what we have to do vs. what we really want to be doing, coupled with the guilt we feel for thinking that way. Whether it's job or family related, being a grown up sucks! I remember reading your posts about skate boarding again like a kid and playing baseball. Life was a lot simpler when we were young and were only interested in indulging ourselves.
Wow.... that could have been written by me. But substitute wife for husband.
Btw, I read Sarno's Mind Body Prescription a little while ago. Can anyone recommend which other book of his has the practical step approach to follow in curing TMS? He's got a few out there.
FYI, I read Dr. Shubiner's book which was pretty helpful but Sarno seems more in tune with what I believe are my problems.
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Plantweed |
Posted - 05/21/2010 : 11:01:58 Yay, Baseball! Your posts were the best. |
HilaryN |
Posted - 05/21/2010 : 07:29:19 Hey BB,
Welcome back!
quote: I get scared sometimes. I just let it pass through... I have no safety net, no support sytem
Don't worry about it - our health is the most important thing. As long as we have that we can keep supporting ourselves.
quote: Hey! I went to a baseball tryout last week and I was the only person over 30 (I'm 44) and I got picked!
Congrats!
quote: Can't quite see the ball as well, but I'm better at guessing when the curveball is coming.
To quote yourself:
quote: It's ALL TMS. Every freakin' bit of it.
Hilary N |
guej |
Posted - 05/21/2010 : 06:44:03 Hi Baseball!
Glad you checked in. I scan through the posts every few days and when I saw your name I wanted to repond. I've been browsing the old posts (from back in 2005 onward) for the past few months because I started to find a treasure trove of great insight and lots of very helpful people back then who consistently gave great advice. I just wanted to tell you that I've really enjoyed a lot of your old posts. Always great basic advice, and always good for some laughs! Pain is serious stuff, so to find a good sense of humor among the other posts is always nice. I'm happy to hear you're still doing great.
It doesn't totally surprise me about your wife. You can see traces of it throughout all your old posts... I love my husband and my kids, but I have a theory that when I'm 80 and living on my own again, I'll be pain free...I think there is a constant conflict going on inside us between what we have to do vs. what we really want to be doing, coupled with the guilt we feel for thinking that way. Whether it's job or family related, being a grown up sucks! I remember reading your posts about skate boarding again like a kid and playing baseball. Life was a lot simpler when we were young and were only interested in indulging ourselves.
Anyway, enjoy your pain-free life! |
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