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Screensize: 640 x 480 800 x 600 1024 x 768 1280 x 1024 UserName: Password: Format Mode: Basic  Help  Prompt  Format: Font Andale Mono Arial Arial Black Book Antiqua Century Gothic Comic Sans MS Courier New Georgia Impact Lucida Console Script MT Bold Stencil Tahoma Times New Roman Trebuchet MS Verdana   Size 1 2 3 4 5 6   Color Black Red Yellow Pink Green Orange Purple Blue Beige Brown Teal Navy Maroon LimeGreen Message: * HTML is OFF * Forum Code is ON Smilies [quote][i]Originally posted by LadyBug[/i] [br]Skizzik requested that I post about my surgery. I haven't been a Sarno follower very long, but I guess I know enough not to put too much emphasis on the physical. Here goes... In the Summer of '04 I had surgery for a torn rotator cuff. First mistake. They brought in a CPM chair, that stands for continuous passive motion. Because the shoulder was also "frozen" it had to be kept moving and this thing had a robotic arm. I broke my foot on the damn thing and spent 6 weeks walking in a foot cast. Remember I was already in a sling, so no crutches. As you can imagine, I was very unhappy. At the time, we had just purchased a house after living like gypsies for several years. Many apartments. We had sold our home in NYS and were re settling in the South East. If I am to be truthful I was also "turning my back" forever on returning to NY. And my elderly Mother, who I loved very much. She had moved in with my controling verbally abusive sister, over my objections years before. When I left it was because of many reasons but mostly because they, together, drove me nuts. Before I left I ended up in the CCU with chest pains. I was always very close with my Mother and it took a lot to leave. So looking back, I see that my back began to hurt 3 months after buying this house. I blamed it on the cast which made me walk crooked. I went back and visited my Mom several times a year in the following 2 years. Wasn't easy with horrible back pain to travel but I did. And I spent HOURS on the phone with Mom, allowing her the opportunity to vent about my sister. I would always hang up and feel just terrible, but there was nothing to do with it so I "put it away". Since '04 I have been treated with chiropractic,PT,rheumatology, infusion therapy, trigger point injections, nerve blocks,acupuncture etc... Last Fall surgery seemed the only thing left and so after MRIs, CT scans and myleograms I went for it. I was told I had all the degenerating stuff, L3,L4,L5,S1. Spinal Stenosis. So I was to have a laminectomy. I did so. No improvement. At all. In October of '05, my Mom passed away. I grieve her still and miss her everyday. I have effectively all but removed my sister from my life. I do not trust her and have much resentment toward her for the way she treated my Mother. In my heart I suspect the pain that gnaws at my back is because of all this. So skizzik, there you have it, in a nut shell. By the time my incision healed in my back and the post op pain went away, the original problem remained. I am currently reading TDM and on page 5 it says there is no documentation that laminectomy relieves back pain. Oh how I wish I had read that last Fall. I am happy to have discovered Sarno. Better late than never. I think I am learning that we are clever beings and our subconcious is almost a seperate entity! Truthfully, I never wanted to sell my home in NY and run away, but I felt I was "preserving" myself. All I knew was I had to get away. BTW, I did invite Mom to come with me. She declined. I think she thought I wasn't going to go. And I know she felt abandoned. I hope she is happy and dancing with my Dad. I hope she has forgiven me. Now all I have to do is forgive myself. No Good Deed Goes Unpunished [/quote]   Check here to include your profile signature.