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| greenelvis |
Posted - 02/04/2007 : 00:12:32
Hello All,
My brief story is I am 29, and was diagnosed with a 10mm L4/L5 disc herniation on Oct. 5th of last year.
The pain was excrushiating and just 2 weeks ago, I returned to work part time. After hearing my doctor say, in his dictation that I have a "huge" disc herniation, and then proceed to give me my final epidural injection, I just decided to become my own doctor.
So, I've been diving into research, and stumbled across Sarno's book just a few days ago. I made my doctor order more p.t. and also massage therapy, I got an inversion therapy table, and went on celebrex. All this to say now...it is helping, but I am wondering if it is all placebo?
You see 6 weeks prior to the acute attack, I ended the relationship with my fiance. During that six weeks, I was running ragged, trying to avoid dealing with my emotions. Needless to say, at the onset of such physical pain, I believe it made me face much of what I was supressing. But, after reading Sarno's book, and how he talks about anger...well, anger just isn't something I feel in this instance, or most others in life. I'm a people pleasing, perfectionist after all! (:
Anyways, I am kind of unclear as to where to go from here. But, everything fits with TMS. I even have the knot in the area of my lower back, that has been described in other sites I've seen. And it explains why the sensitivity in my muscles are on both sides. I swear when I get a massage it hurts worse on the "unaffected", uninjured side than it does the right side.
So, today, i started talking to my pain...and I noticed, it does seem to jump. Goes into my achilies at times, my upper foot, calf. Sometimes I notice a burning right at my hip, and for weeks I thought I've just been imagining that.
Anyways, that's my story. I'm still unclear somewhat how this whole thing works. With the whole repression thing. But, I'm in pursuit of the truth, and I know God'll show me the way...deeper into healing my heart, my mind, and my body.
Any suggestions or guidance would be appreciated!
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| Stryder |
Posted - 02/04/2007 : 21:21:09
ge said: But, what I wouldn't love to bring it up to him when I go back for a recheck!
Hi ge,
Here are a few things for your consideration...
- Your discovery of the work of the Good Doctor has delivered you on the doorstep to your recovery. This door does not lead to the medical/industrial complex.
- Fear is the key, you are correct. Fear is TMSs most powerful and fav alley. Conquer your fear of the pain and you shall recover. There is no timeframe, it takes as long as it takes. Fear and pain are the distraction to keep your repressed rage and emotions from reaching your conscious mind.
- If you have not already done so read this...
http://www.tmshelp.com/forum/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=3047
- Recheck? For what purpose? If you are in no danger, then why go back to the doc that has missed the DX (diagnosis) so completely?
Finish reading HBP, and when you are done read the next two books, MBP (The Mindbody Prescription) and TDM (The Divided Mind).
Tell us, ge, what else is going on in your life?
Take care, -Stryder |
| greenelvis |
Posted - 02/04/2007 : 19:26:20
I am reading Heal Back Pain by him, and I get that I probably have repressed anger. But, how do just deal with repressed anger, that you don't necessarily feel? I don't wanna make something up.
Is it enough to just kind of talk to your body, telling your mind that the pain is ridiculous and reassure my mind that all is well?
Is that the key? Or is the key in just accepting the diagnosis and diving back into life again without fear?
Today, I did one thing to concere fear: I got into my car again just like I always did, my legs first, instead of my butt, and then swinging my legs around. And...I am no worse for the wear! :D
And just curious: have any of you actually discussed or asked any of your doctors if they know about TMS? I am thinking I need to keep this to myself though b/c my case is workers comp. But, what I wouldn't love to bring it up to him when I go back for a recheck!
Seriously, the more I talk to my mind the past couple days, the more the pain either goes away, or it shifts. I think its just so wild.
But good, to finally feel like I can do something that works! |
| Stryder |
Posted - 02/04/2007 : 18:35:00
greenelvis said: I'm still unclear somewhat how this whole thing works.
Hi ge,
Which of Sarno's books do you have?
Have you finished reading it yet?
Take care,
-Stryder |
| mizlorinj |
Posted - 02/04/2007 : 07:28:10
Hi. I have a large herniation in the same area. After being scared by the orthoped,, I decided p/t, injections, etc were not the thing for me. I saw no improvement from any of it and still was basically disabled with pain. My pain moved around too, butt cheek, tailbone area, top of thing under butt cheek, and all that did was prove to me that it was TMS. Read Dr. Sarno's books and had the joy of seeing him and hearing him tell me "you, young lady, have TMS." I followed the study guide and did a lot of writing and felt a lot of emotions. I am still journaling and removing "emotional trash" and am much better and returned to work weeks ago. Recovered from the worst pain of my life for weeks on end. No pain relievers worked. 
Dr. Sarno was the pioneer of TMS treatment and am grateful to have learned about TMS, gone through the treatment program, and am 99% recovered. He calls herniations, etc. "gray hair of the spine". It comes with aging and is normal. I was relieved to hear that too.
I found talking to my brain about the pain helped too. Also, the other heavy emotions besides anger are fear and guilt.
I read here yesterday that this is becoming the "doubters messageboard" and that does appear to be true. People who continue to say their pain is not going away, is it possibly structural. As long as that doubt is there in your mind, the pain will not go away. Your brain is accomplishing its purpose of keeping you thinking it's physical. You must, as Dr. Sarno says, accept 100% that you have TMS.
Hope this is helpful! 
-L |
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