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| Kristin |
Posted - 12/08/2006 : 13:53:34
I am stuck in multiple symptoms like I've not had since becoming Sarno aware. Tense buzzing feeling, pelvic cramps, yeast infection, back ache primarily on right side, foot pain, leg aches, sleeplessness, irritabililty, feelings of depression, etc.
Just after Thanksgiving my son got strepp throat, daughter diagnosed with mono, we all get treated with anti-biotics (I have a stubborn yeast infection), our sweet old cat passes away, our garage was broken into and my mountain bike and son's snowboard were stolen, my job is boring, my husband is stressed out. I could care less about the holidays right now. I plan on taking it pretty easy, but my daughter and I have to go shopping tonight because she's tolo royalty. We both have doctors appointments this afternoon. I'm sure the doctor will try to prescribe anti-depressants. This has come on fairly sudden but the pressure has increased lately too.
I feel really down. I've been journaling today. Liked Wavy-souls two voices method. |
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| carbar |
Posted - 12/16/2006 : 21:25:20
Hey Kristin,
Sounds like you've got a lot of stuff going on beyond the usual bustle and stress of the holidays with your kiddos sick and the theft.
I'm curious how they dignose mono. Is it a bacteria or virus they test for? Or is it more the symptoms?
It sounds like you are doing your best to stick with the TMS frame of mind. Probly the exercise and yoga will help you feel clear headed. I wouldn't get caught up in the worries about various illnesses (diabetes, etc.). Remember this is a stressful time of year for everyone. For me, it gets harder to stick with my routines that keep me sane when it seems like everyone else around me is operating on a different stress energy level.
Don't beat yourself up too much for your response to the dickhead investigator. It sounds like he was an ass, and why should you have to be confrontational with someone who you are paying for their services? Maybe a letter to your agent is in order, detailing his impolite manner. I can totally relate to that "foggy" feeling when someone hits me with an unexpected attitude. If you are a kind and gentle person by nature, it's hard get your game on so immediately. Plus, there's that TMS tendency to want to please everyone else, even people lacking basic manners.
One other thought. Sounds like you've got a lot going on, is there the emotion of "overwhelmed" hiding out somewhere? I can imagine feeling scared to really experience that sense of overwhelming, and the unconscious wants to prevent you realizing that and therefore causing the TMS symptoms.
Well, I'm glad you are here, Kristin! Letting it out is definitely a great strategy for dealing with TMS. Good luck to you! |
| kevin t |
Posted - 12/16/2006 : 21:25:00
Bahhhh Humbug.....
Im just curious , what is this "two voices method"? Some form of journaling? |
| Kristin |
Posted - 12/16/2006 : 15:19:23
Well, I finally went back to the doctor yesterday afternoon, again she said she had good and bad news. The bad news that I have mono and the good news that there's a reasonable explanation for my fatigue and sore throat. For good measure I am treating the symptoms as if they are TMS, because I know there's a lot to be in a rage about now.
Before my appointmtent, I had just gone through an "interview" with an insurance special investigator who basically interogated me about my insurance claim for my stolen bike. I felt like I had committed a crime instead of being a victim of one. He admitted to having been a police detective in the past as he said that no one could have possibly come through the window because it was locked and didn't slide. WELL YES DIPS**T my husband put the lock pin down and a peice of wood to prevent any further burglerys. I was feeling insecure and put on the spot and didn't have the wherewithall to contradict his findings. I personally did not ever climb through the window. The ordeal is a long story, basically he recorded me saying that perhaps someone had come in through an unlocked door. I wish I had more confidence and assertiveness! My head felt like it was in such a fog and I became confused.
AFter he left my back hurt so bad. It subsided (Clear picture of TMS) as I was emailing him with picture of the hand prints on the window and and the cobwebs that were undisturbed by the window opening and closing. I think he was also being somewhat sexist by insinuating that my bike couldn't be any more expensive than my husband's bike and that I am trying to make out with more insurance money than replacement value! He wants me to jump through all the possible hoops to prove to him what I had. Apparently a good picture of the bike with me riding it isn't enough. ARGGGGHHHH! |
| Kristin |
Posted - 12/09/2006 : 11:11:09
I was just at the doctor's office yesterday, when the doctor said she had good news and bad news. First, a new baby was coming into the world and she had to attend to that, and second that we had to reschedule my appointment! I am now starting to wonder about the onset of type II diabetes. I had the early symptoms of gestational diabetes while pregnant with my duaghter. Anyway, I'm having blood work done before my appointment in a week.
Besides using humor, perspective, and journaling which are great suggestions, I need to not get railroaded by my schedule and get some outdoor excercise and continue my yoga.
With some of my symptoms, I woudn't be surprised if I was developing type two diabetes. I sure hope not. All the more reason to take care of myself better. |
| MikeJ |
Posted - 12/08/2006 : 15:39:41
Hey Kristin,
I'm sorry to hear about this and I hope you won't let those difficulties get you down. Like Littlebird said, don't give up!
Whenever I'm down and feel like giving up, I do 3 things:
1) I watch a really funny movie. My priority is to get out of that state so I can think clearly, and just laughing makes me snap out of it. If I'm clouded by sadness and feel overwhelmed, the whole world is bad and I'm unable to do anything.
2) Then I try to focus on the good things I have. I have a list where I wrote all the things I'm grateful for.
3) And finally, I read the following quote. It may or may not work for you but it always seems to work for me. So I'll share it with everyone:
"You make it sound like you have a hard life and that's an excuse for giving up but it's not. I got in an accident and had brain damage and was blind in my left eye for 7 months. I was sexually molested at the age of 12. My father died, along with many cousins and my grandmother. I only loved one man in my life and he died as well. I had a abortion by the time I was 16. As you can see, my life hasn't been much better than yours. But, I dont give up. I never have and I never will. It's selfish. When you hurt yourself, it hurts other people. Later in life do you want people to look back at you and say he had a few hard times and just gave up or would you like them to say he had a lot of shat going on but he never gave up, he worked beyond the requirments, he worked to his full potential and didnt let things stand in his way? Isn't the answer to that question easy?"
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| Littlebird |
Posted - 12/08/2006 : 15:19:33
Hi Kristin,
Just want to say that I"m sorry to hear about all the stress and difficulties you're dealing with. No wonder you feel down.
Twice this week I've had a relapse of symptoms I'd not had for a while, both times while I was feeling particularly stressed and overwhelmed. But the symptoms passed as I journaled and reflected on my emotions. Hope you'll find the same relief since you mentioned journaling today. Don't give up!
Corey |
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