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Steve |
Posted - 09/24/2004 : 14:18:46 It's been about 6 months now that the nasty TMS bugaboo reared its ugly head back into my life after 5 years and I'm still fighting it tooth and nail, although I have been getting discouraged at the slowness of my "recovery".
What started out as a shoulder injury has morphed into a constant case of TMJ and burning mouth syndrome. In between, I've experienced much shifting of the pain and have had headaches, skin rashes and acne, back pain, sneezing fits and allergies, sinus problems, eyelid twitching, face numbness, hand numbness, fatigue, canker sores, and dizziness (new one). Lately, since I stopped reading Sarno's book everyday, the pain has gotten worse. I have been constantly dwelling on the pain, wherever it is in my body.
Anyway, a very interesting thing happened to me recently while I took a week long vacation to visit my girlfriend, who lives overseas. While I was there, many profound emotions came out as our relationship has really been struggling...anger, sadness, despair, etc. I noticed that when this happened by pain was substantially reduced and for stretches was gone altogether. I don't know why my mind hasn't taken this as a cue from this to stop this TMS pain charade!! I wish I could have captured the way I felt on the trip permanently. I felt my feelings so much, it was very emotionally painful, but at least my physical pain diminished.
Thanks for listening. I find great solace in reading all the great posts from everyone on this board. |
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Agata |
Posted - 09/27/2004 : 06:23:14 Steve! What I got from Dr. Sarno’s method is to know about TMS and accept TMS. I added one more step, express my emotions, good or bad. This revelation happened after I could feel how my anger was sinking somewhere into my body when I had telephone dispute with ignorant and dishonest sales person. I couldn’t just yell at him because that would worsen my situation but I have done that afterwards, in privacy of my home. I could feel the rage just poring out when I talked to myself and cried at the same time. That felt good. I strongly believe expression of our emotions is important. The problem for me is to find the right way to do it because I cannot dismiss the whole society, I have to earn my living.
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menvert |
Posted - 09/25/2004 : 08:14:46 it's discouraging to hear about your regression :) but it seems, you probably just need to have a bit of a look at your life at the moment . and see that it's not surprising(I'm assuming here)
But it does seem for people with TMS type personalities living in the current 'real-world' that TMS will never completely go away for us(unless we can truly change our personalities, which is very unlikely) and if we continue to live in this world . we have to continue to battle TMS... and it's not necessarily a bad thing.
But it can be very discouraging... a rollercoaster of sorts. I don't know, sometimes it is just like a marriage. realistically a marriage needs constant work to be successful as does a painfree existence with our personality types.
It is a really hard thing sometimes, not to focus on your pain. Sometimes you can do it at other times you just do not have the resolve :( I find sometimes a good holiday from focusing on TMS and pain is very useful and other times, you have to knuckle down and set your thought patterns straight :)
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Suz |
Posted - 09/24/2004 : 15:02:41 Steve,
It seems that maybe you focusing on the pain so much and on your body physically might be stopping your progress. It sounds like you beat this TMS before and you can do it again. Why don't you start journalling (if you aren't already) and really read the books over andover. Are you exercising? It is important to do that to show the TMS that you don't care! Suz |
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