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| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/09/2006 : 13:27:24
I have good news to report...I drove myself (turning my entire torso to make left/right turns,,but oh well) to the park and then to the gym to do a lower body workout...Walked for THIRTY MINUTES then did my workout at the gym...I was not free from pain and other sensations (tingling, twitching) but I DID IT ANYWAY..and talked to myself each time the pain increased asking WHY??? What am I thinking/feeling now and just b4 the increase in pain or symptoms..For example, while working out I starting to think of the love of my life, Dennis, who died when I was 19...He was only 21 years old and died in a car accident..I started missing him, always do...but also started thinking of all the extra years that I have been on the planet then him...He has soooo much to offer the world, was quite extraordinary and he missed out on so many years of life...When I had a terrible knee injury at 19, he was away at boot camp in the Marines...He was sooooo supportive of my healing and getting off my butt to do the necessary PT after the ligament tear and cast for 8 weeks...He helped me so much...I started thinking maybe he is one of my Angels and he could be w/ me right then, coaching me w/o my knowing it...It gave me a bittersweet feeling of comfort and longing at the same time...My point is that as much pain as I am still in, I AM ALIVE and I WILL HEAL FROM THIS TMS as well!!!I have been noting a causal relationship between an increase in pain and stressful emotions either in the present or upon reflection of my past...Many of you and your encouraging/wise words were w/ me today when I ventured out on my own..Thank you for everything!..Oh..and the pain is moving around...Going to my lower back, groin a bit and even a spot on my right foot is twitching on it's own like it had a pulse...Amazing how the mind will FIGHT to keep the TMS going..IT's like a constant battle between 2 different parts of our inner Selves..May the HEATHLY STRONG ONE WIN!!!! Amen!
God bless,
Karen |
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| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/10/2006 : 11:40:32
Yup...Painting is what i do, even for a living for several years now..and i have that big exhibition coming up..I have some pieces to finish b4..It stinks that i lost 6 weeks of time due to this neck TMS...Oh well...the past is past...I think focusing now i could get alot done b4 my show...I have been trying to move my neck more and it is tighter now..BUT...I did notice it tightening during a conversation on the phone w/ my best girlfriend in Sarasota...She goes thru phases where she focuses on her fear of death and I was trying to help her w/ that...Trouble is, I am afraid of death too! |
| wolf29 |
Posted - 07/10/2006 : 11:36:33
Well, you should do something to distract yourself. Focusing on the pain definitely won't help and if you just sit around you'll just focus on it. I know I do.
Painting sounds like a good creative outlet. Paint something that will make you happy. |
| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/10/2006 : 11:28:20
Well....Actually....it is dangerous for me to drive without a co pilot...really it is...I cannot turn it left/right or look up..I have tried to do it alone during normal hours when traffic is heavy and it's really scary and not safe..I almost cut a person off and caused an accident..I live in the boon docks out here...30 min from the city area...and it gets hot as living hell as well...So walking is only feasible early early morning or evening...I might try to paint in a bit, i am so behind in my work... |
| wolf29 |
Posted - 07/10/2006 : 11:23:04
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my roomie is back at work and I am all alone stuck in the house...I hate it...
Then go out and enjoy some outdoor time. Is anything stopping you? Don't say your neck  |
| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/10/2006 : 11:21:08
Good call Jay..You are right..thanx for pointing that out...I am just feeling really sad today actually..my roomie is back at work and I am all alone stuck in the house...I hate it...I want to go to PT. Pleasant, NJ right now and walk on the boardwalk..I HATE living where i don't want to be... |
| wolf29 |
Posted - 07/10/2006 : 11:19:24
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My neck won't allow me to take steps any larger then that...
You may want to change how you speak to yourself in terms of the physical realm. It's not your neck that's not letting you take bigger steps it's your mind. Keep telling yourself that, get mad at your brain for continually pulling this stunt, and keep taking those baby steps  |
| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/10/2006 : 09:21:02
thanx Jay...Absolutely...baby steps...My neck won't allow me to take steps any larger then that...It was hard driving back from the park this morning, I had to turn my car around partly in the opposite direction b4 making a turn...just because of the lack of range of motion in my neck...Gonna watch a very sad movie as a tool to get some feelings out this morning b4 my phone therapy session... |
| wolf29 |
Posted - 07/10/2006 : 08:20:42
Good job getting out there on your own and exercising. If we don't challenge ourselves, within our own means, then the pain wins.
Keep it up. Baby steps, but keep it up
Jay |
| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/09/2006 : 20:10:24
Thanx Ali Cat! I love dancing...Have fun! Cannot wait til I am able to dance again!! |
| jrnythpst |
Posted - 07/09/2006 : 15:13:47
Good for you Karen, I am proud of ya. I need to get on that band wagon myself. I am at my parent's house right now (I live across the yard. LOL). Once I get back to my place I plan on playing Shakira's Laundry Service cd as it always makes me want to move!
Hugs,
Ali Cat |
