| T O P I C R E V I E W |
| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/05/2006 : 17:26:33
I wanted to add to my last post that I am wondering how I am ever going to get married and have a normal life..Who would want someone w/ this God awful TMS?? I know, I sound so negative and i only wish that some of you knew me for 5 minutes when the TMS isn't so acute...You would see a different and very upbeat Karen...The pain is just beating me into the ground lately...I feel so trapped by it and so lost...When, How will it get better?? I think i am doing what i should..ie..journaling, reading and re-reading, thinking psychologically...But yet...I feel as frozen as my neck feels. |
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| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/06/2006 : 17:01:32
thank you Miche, that makes perfect sense to me...If you get a moment, please read the post I just wrote called "Sorry 4 being oversensitive to the tough love.." I really had an epiphany about my unhealthy behavior lately...I apologized and decided not to beat myself up from it, but rather to learn from it...I am so grateful to each and every one of you for caring...I will try to paint later today, that is one of my greatest outlets...
Hugs,
Karen |
| miche |
Posted - 07/06/2006 : 16:55:56
Karen, so many people have answered your posts so many times, surely you must see how everyone has been eager to help you, it can be quite frustrating to find that one's effort to help just is not working, no one is angry with you , everyone is trying to find a solution for you, personnally when I find the pain unbearable is when I push myself to do something, not to is like admitting defeat, please give it a try, have you considered writing songs, or a play, you are very good at expressing yourself, I can lose myself in crossword puzzles, it takes my mind off my problems , works better than meditating for me, give it a try, there has to be something you can do that will offer distraction from your worries, and do not be offended by the xanax suggestions, you may benefit as a way to break the anxiety cycle you are in, I took ativan for a few weeks once in the middle of my divorce, it was enough to lessen the panic I felt at the time and I was able to regain some control over my nerves as I realised that some of my symptoms were caused my anxiety, these drugs are also excellent muscle relaxant, a short term course would not be detrimental , just my opinion of course, like everyone on this board I feel for you and only want to help,I understand you need support and I suspect that your writing so many post is a way for you to relieve the anxiety you feel at being alone, but the more you write about your problems the more life you give them, I hope that I am not sounding harsh, that is the last thing I would want to do, I know the old saying walk a mile in my shoes always apply, I just want to tell you what works for me |
| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/06/2006 : 10:44:06
Thank you TT, what an incredibly helpful and caring reply...I am so grateful to you my friend..I am going to sleep on it because I need to wait a day or so to make sure I respond to anyone who writes to me on here...I have connected w/ some wonderful people, like yourself, through this forum...and I don't want to bail without having closure...You are very sweet and very smart...Your personality comes across as so upbeat and fun loving...Reminds me a little of me, when I am not in hell like lately...
Hugs,
Karen |
| Dave |
Posted - 07/06/2006 : 10:42:37
You are overly sensitive to other people's opinions about you. This is likely a projection of your own feelings about yourself. It seems you fit the goodist personality to a tee.
You chose to interpret our responses to you in the way that you did. My posts on this forum are often short and blunt and misinterpreted as negative. That's OK, I don't mind. But I hope you take the time to examine your own feelings and realize where we are coming from. |
| tennis tom |
Posted - 07/06/2006 : 10:35:12
Hi S_A,
GET MAD, BUT DON'T GO AWAY MAD
Take Micheline's example. She got pissed and was ready to bail on the board--but simmered down and is doing much better.
FEEL your emotion, let it go through you--and then write another post about what you experienced.
The problem is you are a very energetic, creative person. In this crisis you have no oulet for the ocean of energy welling up inside of you. You are releasing your creative, spiritual and loving energy the only way you THINK you can--by posting on this board. It was successful for quite a while but we are running out of ideas for you. This is causing frustation for us. I stopped posting you simply because I ran out of ideas to help you. We are all only human. This is a safe place--we cannot reach out through our computer screens and ring each other's necks. Otherwise this is the internet. Anything goes--(that Dave is willing to put up with). You can post as much as you want. In a day it will be ether, as yellow as yesterday's fish-wrapper.
NO ONE IS REQUIRED TO READ ANYONE'S POSTS.
BUT, if you put it out there and ASK for comments, you are fair game. This is still a corner of the real world, and according to Darwin, it is "survival of the fittest".
You are in a crisis. This is not your "normal doing" state. It will pass. You have already started breaking out of the circle by posting here. In yogic terms you may be experiencing a kundalini experience. Our culture does not have a word for this. The closest we come to it is "nervous breakdown". You are going it cold-turkey with-out a guide, very tough and not reccommended.
You are undergoing a trnasformation. When you break-out of the circle you will be a better person and a better artist. Hang in there. SLEEP ON IT.
When I experinced my recent "significant depressive state" crisis, the shrink said we were wasting our time, because I wasn't digging deep enough. I had the choice to bail or buckle down and face the truths head on and find a shrink who would not hold my feet to the fire and we could be "nice-nice".
I stuck with it, and came through. I refused the meds when I felt I they were making me into someone else and went cold turkey. A few month's later, I have made a 180' turn-around and am hyper-productive--the other side of the depression coin--but enjoying it better--it is more culturaly acceptable to be a "doooer".
A few months ago I, thought my life was over. I felt very old. I lost 25 lbs in three months and was depressed. I gained the weight back (argh), but am active and positive.
The trick is to find some BALANCE.
I DO HAVE AN IDEA FOR YOU THOUGH. GO SIMMING USING A SNORKLE.
YOU WON'T HAVE TO TURN YOUR NECK THEN. WHEN ALL ELSE FAILS TO WORK RETURN TO THE SEA. |
| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/06/2006 : 09:03:04
Dave and Chris,
I don't even know what to say...other then nothing actually, because apparantly I have said far too much in general...In looking back on previous posts from long ago I noticed there were some people who either posted alot (like me) during acute attacks or even posted longer messages then I have and more negative actually...But I seem to be given the title here of the most annoying and most obsessive poster ever...TO be truthful, it does hurt...I believe you that you want to help me, of course..And I do not mean at all to be disrespectful to your great advice by not listening..I have been doing the best I can..If it weren't for my worrying about being rude to people who have written back to me, I just would leave the whole forum right now, for good..Maybe I will wait a couple of days to see who else might write, reply to them and then say goodbye..The last thing i want to do is lose friends I haven't even met yet... |
| Dave |
Posted - 07/06/2006 : 07:37:38
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But yet...I feel as frozen as my neck feels.
Exactly.
"Woe is me" is not a successful treatment method for TMS.
The answers are in the book, but you keep insisting on wallowing in your misery instead of doing the work.
I'm sorry if this is blunt, but I think it's apparent to everybody here except yourself.
You say you ard "doing what [you] should" but I'm not sure you have the right attitude. There is no magic bullet. There is nothing you can do to make the pain go away. You don't have any control over it. You have to accept that and just do the work and stop obsessing about the symptoms and get back to living your life.
You are allowing the pain to consume your thoughts. You are beyond obsessive. Maybe you should ask your primary physician for an anti-anxiety medicine like Xanax to get you over the hump. |
| Singer_Artist |
Posted - 07/05/2006 : 18:12:26
Thank you dear friend...You always help me to feel a little better...I appreciate you very much!
Hugs,
Karen |
| art |
Posted - 07/05/2006 : 18:03:03
THere are a lot worse things than TMS, which is a benign, very curable syndrome...
The vast majority of the people who accept their TMS get better...
But you've got a lot going on Karen...YOu've got to go easy on yourself and give things a chance...YOu're a talented, attractive, worthy woman with a great deal to offer...You need to not forget that...\\
Have a little faith in your capacity to heal, and be patient...
Things will get better. |
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